Wednesday, August 28, 2013

16 Year Old. Emergency Room and Other Things. Part one.



              16 year old kid in an Emergency Room: Phenol Acidosis.
                                               Part 1
                               By Mark William Darus.

 

Disturbed from sound sleep as my phone rang out at

2:46 PM yesterday and eventually hearing the “BEEP-BEEP-BEEP” of a message left. Checking the Sender: RESTRICTED displayed, so I disregarded it thinking yet another collection coming to catch me.

I attempted to drift back to a dream disturbed about my saving Milla Jovovich from the undead and her being extremely grateful for my success. Yeah, sort of hooked on the Resident Evil movie series, seen all five films and love them and apparently they’ve crept into my personal mind-movies, IE, dreams.

My dogs began to bark wildly, I heard of shots outside the house, presumably small arms, and I said: “SHIT! Guess I’m up early.”

Letting the dogs outside, I called my battered phones voice mail.

A friend I’ll call Tarriza voice sounded panicked and urgent. Her tone ran the gambit of emotional display. Trying to be calm and clear, yet losing the battle in the end as her lips must’ve curled downward, mind trying to express, finding a cut-off.

Quickly calling the dogs back inside while I heard…

“Mark, my child’s in the hospital. I got a call from her school, took her to the ER when their infirmaries diagnostics didn’t run high enough on her blood sugar readings…” a female voice raced on to the point the English language turned to word-soup and complete gibberish. “I-I, I’m not sure. She’s, we’re, not sure. They think Phenol Acidosis, readings at 660, andidon’tknowwhatto makeof this.”

Frankly, the only time in my life I ever dressed faster and left a place was when I was about 16 years of age and lost my virginity. Her father had come home from work sick, we heard his keys at the door and leapt from a window smiling and naked, clothes soon following behind me.

I left my house with a sense of profound urgency after tossing my camera bag over my shoulder. I never leave home without it, you know. My camera is my weapon, after all. How else can one fight so many that find our world so ugly and disgusting and shove in their faces a beauty their eyes fail to see mostly by sincere lack of choice on their part?

 

 

I close my gate behind me, enter my Trailblazer and head to ‘The Morning Store’. I will always call this place on West fourteenth street this as for over 20 years I got coffee there suffering the work of day shifters.

“Hey, Mark! How’s it going?” Mike says happily as like he has each and every day for the years he’s he’d worked there.

“Doing good, man! Heading to the Hospital to see someone and her kid in the ER, then heading to work,” I said flatly, yet jovially in return.

“We might be runnin’ low, man,” he said, and adding to a customer, “No ma’am, I told you before we do not accept blow jobs for bottles of MD20/20. Not sure who told you we did, but we don’t. Sorry.”

Chuckling aloud, I said, “I got ya back, brother!” after putting a quarter cup of ice in my 13 year old Goshen Dairy coffee cup with a British Petroleum Green lid. Killing the mega urn, I added some half and half and goo-gobs of sugar to my ‘three jobs old cup’ as I removed the huge filter container, emptying it’s spent contents and walked to the deli counter to gather up and place a new mound of grounds into it.

Conversation hitting me from areas around me.

“Daddy, can I have a strawberry Icee?” the voice of young girl excitedly asks.

“Shit, bitch! I told ya I’d be home when I get home!” a man speaks into a tiny little Star Trek like communicator. Agitated like a washing machine way too imbalanced, he adds, “I’m gonna beat you into place if ya ain’t careful!”

“Please, for the last time! No BLOWJOBS FOR WINE! Okay,” Mikes pleading voice falls on the deaf ears of a woman wearing a Winger concert T-shirt, cut-off jeans, sporting seriously trashed hair going from spiked hues of blond, blue, pink to outright mange on her left side as feral strands of brunette locks were much longer, though choppy. Curious about her, , I set the filter holder down by its wanting mate and stepped toward this woman. I had to get closer to her, perhaps my predators instinct taking over my senses as this woman was so obviously vulnerable. Call it what you will: I had to smell her. Close proximity to her would give me her sense of desire, addiction, depression, her depth of need to maintain an even-flow in her being.

My Verizon chirping like mad again, distracting me like Jack the Ripper in a field of Stepford Wives, cleaving a moment in two.

Bringing me back to things more important.

Getting my coffee being first and foremost. Let’s be serious for a moment: How many of us don’t need to satisfy our fixes before beginning anything in earnest? Leveling out as we enter our days with presumed clear thinking, we have a ritual we must follow less all entire days attempts fail and shoot sideways.

A woman babbling about wine and BJ’s drones on as I do a Disco Bump from my hip to hers sending her sideways. Rip-offs of Calvin Kleins Obsession, Jen Anistons fragrance mixed with body funk and sweat met my nostrils as well as a weak electrical taste (like that of the oil, steel and voltage smell of a Dodgem car amusement ride coursing across my tongue. “Here’s my 1.50, Mike. Want me to call the cops on her?”

 

 

 

“Nah, it’s cool. She just split.” Taking my cash, he added; “ Godspeed at the Hospital, Brother!”

“Thanks,”

Firing up my engine, taking sip of my days equalizer, setting mug down and raising an L&M to lip with my right as my left lights my blue BIC. Inhaling deeply as flame and tobacco meet gloriously, filling lungs with bad things unhealthy. Taking another swig coffee as I exhale.

Firm ground.

Standing now yet sitting.

 

Hospital time down the road of a bright new day of life.

 

Driving down West Fourteenth street toward the roundabout, getting stopped at two red lights, I glanced to the drivers beside me. A man appeared to be arguing with someone on a cell, his right hand holding a phone to her ear solidly pressed while his left thrashed about wildly, sometimes beating on the steering wheel of his Black Range Rover, while a weary eyes brunette mother dazedly stared forward as her precious cargo of three small youths seemed to raging on.

In The Parking Lot of Desperate Hope: Cleveland Metro General Hospital, Scranton Road, Cleveland Ohio, 44109. USA

I pull my vehicle into its multileveled domain. Taking a ticket from an object thinking, don’t we all wish to bash to pieces with many hits from a Louisville Slugger for the sheer desire to simply do so freely? Knowing this jungle land too well, I find a spot not near anyone. Most around this land don’t carry insurance. Call me cautious, I was in the Evil Insurance Industry for over ten years. I know too well how those predators work.

Exiting to concrete after disabling my Motorola Motonav GPS and its BlueTooth, I take several steps and suck in surroundings.

There is an ambulances siren screaming nearby as a LifeFlight Helicopter’s blades pierce the sky above.

A lady I can only see as shadow in the garage talks about Jeremy’s excruciating anal fissures as another speaks about the latest Android to come out in a few months and how if Annie doesn’t die, she’ll have to have it!

Leaving the garage and heading toward Scranton Rd I pass people in various states of existence, flesh hanging draped loosely over bone, eyes receding deep into their sockets. Some asking for smokes, others speaking like Muhammad Alles (sp?) last interview incomprehensible as they shuffle about like zombies in a here and now.

Walking up to Metro ER’s SERIOUSLY HEAVY BULLET PROOF, DAMN NEAR NUKE PROOF, yet worthless against water as it’s flooded a few times over the last four years after a heavy rain. Yeah! Who doesn’t like the power of Nature?

 

“C…. h=p “ an utterly garbled voice over poor speaker attempts to ask me.

“I guess. Do you have a Maddie Greene here?” I inquire, leaning toward a stainless steel mouthpiece that has probably had every disease known to mankind spit into it in the last six hours, probably only washed about every 3 days.

“y-h, ic-op, frm- >ZZZZZ< 6.” the third worlds version of communication states in Cleveland Ohio, USA.

“Could you please repeat that? Ya broke up. A lot.” Sickly, recognizing things as they are, I smile inside.

“ic-nnnn-op, <ZZZZ> erk-NA! 6”

Coldly, raising my voice enough to alert the security people in the place, I simply say: “Hey, pisspoor DJ wanting to be a DR, could you please move closer to the microphone so I can hear you clearly.” Noticing the Rent-a-Cops behind him, behind even thicker glass, beginning to stir and eventually stand.

“Yes, She’s in room 26. Follow the black after I open the door.”

“Cool down, CPD rejects, “ I said looking at the wanna be cops. Looking at the guy behind the first line of glass, I quipped to him, “Was it really so hard to bend over instead of merely thinking yourself as a Greyhound Dispatcher to the drugged and fucked up?”

 

Door ‘A’ opens and I stroll underneath it’s threshold. I got that Black Line down with my left eye as my right eye, ears, nose and other insights catch things around me.

This first leading corridor crosses me before this ER’s four Intake Windows.

Truly speaking thru door “A”, a wonderland of things to be heard via gunshot wounds, lawn machine mishaps, “didn’t know the gun was loaded,” and “I thought is was just syphilis. But….”

The nasal capturing scents of this avenue reach me. Rubbing alcohol, floor polish carrying with the taint of fresh dripping blood and its iron memory that crashes into my memory from long ago.

 

Amused and passing, taking in and recording every moment in time, I pass the Nurses Station.

Also enlightening.

“Room 0115, serious DSB.”

“How so?”

“I held a stick of zilch and he stole it from me thinking it morphine.”

“And?”

“popped that sucker into his neck and got glazed..”

“Okay, bump him to 13 psych.”

“Christ, I pulled a live gerbil from her vag-cav.”

“Nice, still alive?”

“The patient or the gerbil?”

“The gerbil! Christ, what a sad journey that little one went thru!”

“Yeah, it’s alive.”

“nice. My kids want a pet. Keep it and run a screen on it, okay?

“You got it. Buy me a coffee?

“No doubt! Such a splendid traveler deserves better,”

“The patient is fine.”

“Good, Can’t wait for her to return with a Blue Herrin shoved up there.”

A moment of silence passes between the with my footfalls.

“I don’t like birds, okay….”

Without aide, I arrive at room 26. Glass wall leading dusty blinds behind it, reaching its doorway.

I enter it.

Seeing a 16 year old on a ER bed,

End of part one.

I am sorry and out of time as I need to sleep for work in 8 hours.



Mark William Darus 08282013

Monday, August 26, 2013

Proteins and Drugs. Why not?






                                 Excessive amounts of Proteins.
                                         Drugs legal and not.
                                                   A journey.

                              How this affects the minds travels.

 

                                                 GO ASK ALICE.
                                         by Mark William Darus

 

 

I was in my late twenties when I saw my father get wasted as a result of a protein imbalance as his liver was failing and he was dying as a result of this.

I witnessed my father over my lifetime then sucking in maybe 20 beers before my eyes.

From what my sisters say, Mom was the drunk and not dad. She, knocking down bottles of booze each and every day to offset the national debt.

Dad, got a bad transfusion that gave him hepatitis, which totally fucks the liver and makes it vulnerable to all. He died eventually, and it took much longer than moms 3 month death sentence within a tiny range of my second daughters birth.

 

My father and his Dr taught me an area of thinking. Excessive intact of proteins will get you high. Funny, steak, peanut butter in a pound or better for most is enough to make them high.

 

Peanut skins when smoked after eating the nuts will also get you out there. You have to eat one pound of nuts before smoking. Imagine you butt tract your next day. Yeah, this is a one time only for you.

I witnessed my father taking rides on Prince Valium time and time again. Legally so.

My sisters said mom was a drunk.

Apparently while dad rode the Valium Stallion.

Not relevant in the here and now.

Not to me at any rate.

 

I did heroin twice to attempt to feel something.

Anything at all human emotional.

I experienced two massive monumental body orgasms. Nothing like I had ever felt with any woman I had ever penetrated achieving same with them. This failed when I defecated in my shorts and me realizing this the next day waking with shorts filled with my shit pressed and smelly against me. Twice was enough for that one! I can't believe people get hooked on Heroin...

 

Apparently, by the 60 yr old males I work with there is plethora for me to experience. At lunch one night they tossed drug names I'd never heard of. This surprised me.

As far as LSD, I’m waiting to my retirement to drop this.

 

Why?

If I drop acid then the worst case scenario would be people looking at this as ALZ.

 

 

Take your drugs wisely and know why you are trying them.


I will take VicaMints within the next two weeks. Why? I have no clear answer except Demerols one time was a bad trip, 2 decades ago. Seriously so. The hang-over effect from Demerol's  was KILLER! I thought my brain was getting split in two. After doing some research, years later, I realized why: I was given a dose, via someone close. They had a few from their mother who weighed in at 300 lbs. I, at that time, weighed in at about 139 lbs.

Be careful...


Mark William Darus 08262013

Saturday, August 24, 2013

Take a resignation or see 3 others get fired in your place. Psychopathic?



                           My Sacrifice. Welcome to the New World.

                               By Mark William Darus.

 

So, you arrive at work and get asked to attend a meeting by your boss with the higher ups in the company within a minute of you clocking in. You, living in day-to-day mode, you react with this curve ball tossed at you. You nod to your boss, they acknowledge.

The smells of coffee brewing hits your nose different this day walking past cubicles changing over time from changing venues as your company traveled toward cheaper rent.

Your eyes seem to capture each and every step your footfalls connect with familiar carpet.

You feel yourself on autopilot and as if walking in some dream.



Trying to gain your bearings as you were headed off before you could even place your meager lunch into the tiny break room fridge. Daily balance impeded. Headed off at the pass.

 

“Hey, Emily! How ya doing?” a coworker asks her with a Friday face, full smiling.

Emily fakes a smile to Phoebe frightened by her boss abrupt approach. “Not sure, hon. Will let ya know/”

Phoebe glances to Emily’s back, seeing lay-offs arising in her company, wondering what Emily knows.

Mind shredding backward over beyond 15 years memories with this company taking far and beyond a third of that time in her life with overtime and non paid wishing to produce sincerely. As a Manager here, wondering how far out of the loop was she.

 

3 minutes before she knew her meeting would be tardy before her manager. Apprehensively checking her cell phone for calls or text messages missed by her and find none.

Placing a lunch into a fridge she’d not see hours much later. Doing so, Emily’s mind taking shit in causing her to take a step outside herself. She thought of her god, her husband, children. Her mind thinking of other areas as her lack of cash flow would affect her gardens and plants.

 

“Damn,Emily, what do you think of the downturn?” Serinia asks plainly with excited tone.

2 minutes.

I’m going to get fired. Damn instincts anyway! Emily thinks as her mind tosses things about.

1 minute before the meeting.

Emily walks to a bathroom. Pulling down tight fitting pants, she bends down on a self-cleansed seat to relieve herself. Urine passes freely, she sighs vocally, and dots place themselves on her panties from droplets.

 

T-Minus 9 seconds and counting.

Emily strolled into the meeting knowing she was going to get an axe placed in her head.

 

“Nice to see, Emily,” her companies president said to her. “Please take a seat and bagel and coffee, “ he said jovialy with the plastic of smiles hiding eyes behind dark glasses.

 


Emily sits, thanking for the offerings and declining them with a tone strong and confident. She brought her own Krusty Kreem glazed donut and her own cup of java.

 

“we have a situation you can perhaps be willing to help us with, Emily,” the company president Wesker, says freely, excitedly and coldly.

Emily asks: “What is this, sir?”

“well, we have to cut the budget you understand. We told our stock holders we’d have an 8.79 growth this year and we only hit 8.75. We have to cut on the back end to reach that profit margain. I’m sure you’ll understand.”

Taking a bite into a glazed donut and swallowing it with a huge gulp of coffee, Emily;s mind ran.

“What do wish of me?” tossing it all out there.

 

“Emily, your place in this companies history has made great things occur. Through your tutiledge, inspiration and sheer energy we’re wishing to give you a great option.” Wesker added with tone so sickly sacharin.

“ You’re going to fire me, right?!”

 

“my dear, no! We don’t wish to terminate you. We merely are asking you to cut three subordinates jobs for you to keep your placement with us.”

 

Emilies mental screen goes blank.

 

 

Taking ground before her.

 

Her eyes wide open.

 

 

“Fuck you, no=thanks, ass” Emily said, never raising her voice, adding: “Fire me! I will not give up others up to keep me to save my own tail!"



Smirking lips set with an all-too confident cock to his head,  eyes hidden behind dark sunglasses he never removed.  Wesker tells her, "Very well, dearest. You WILL resign or we will smear your reputation. Amazing what CGI can do to a persons marriage."

 

 

 

She looks at the board, smiles and tells them an extremely simple point of life.

 

“DO YOU NOT THINK WE KNOW WHERE YOUR CHILDREN AND GRAND CHILDREN GO TO SCHOOL? Know the stretches you try to hide and as you fuck others you and try to hide from them your spouses. "

 

                   Emily stops for a moment

 

As a woman told her bossess “fuck you, you won’t fire me and I won't let you fire others in my name."


 

Want to play games.



As they cut her from a board within 12 hours 5 children, 8 grand kids and about 8 mistresses went missing.

 

 

Emily said: welcome to my world.

Welcome to the New World.

 

 

 

Mark William darus 08242013
 

Thursday, August 22, 2013

Antoinette Tuff: Facing down the barrel of a cold .45

        
                           Antoinette Tuff: Facing down the barrel of a cold .45.

                                        by Mark William Darus.



                  Georgia Spree/Thrill Killing diverted by inspired thinking.


             http://www.huffingtonpost.com/2013/08/21/antoinette-tuff_n_3792683.html

                 (okay, so this vid goes into commercials. Sorry. Will try to correct with others presented.)


                    How amazing was she, looking death in the face by an agitated 20 year old male American totting guns and a backpack of endless rounds of ammunition? He told her how he wanted to waste the lives of Police officers. She listened and spoke to him.

                   And this man, (and why does the American Media refer to him as a kid at twenty years old? )     did not stroll into an a high school or a college wishing to eliminate those that looked down on high via peer pressure, wishing to get even with "the Haters." This man strolled into an elementary school, and I believe this to by my opinion alone, was to eliminate the Next Generation of clique classifiers to prevent events that went unknown to others in his life: To kill those that could cause pain as he grew up and went sideways from  what is considered normal thinking and living. Perhaps even creating it within him as he took it a step further for retribution.


                    All interviewed thus far said he was an average person. No history of violence. No police record.

                    Seeing a trend?

                    Seriously?  You don't? (I hope most of my readers probably see something going on here.)

                    Is it so hard to think without IPODS, Androids?

                    Do you remember using your own mind to make connective reasoning? Base problem solving on a human level. Wanting to ridicule someone and stopping just before you did?

                    I want to believe most of my readers do.

                   Take a walk with me:

                    Columbine.

                    Amish country School slayings: Ohio

                    Colorado Theatre Killings at a Batman Movie. And I love this investigation as they still have no prime motive for this.

                     Others lesser known:

                     DC Sniper. We're told they caught him. I don't believe they did. I do believe a bargain was made for the collective good of paranoid society.

                      Chardon Ohio School shootings: Ironically, the beginning of Psychopathy Another Life.


                      Connections: The Colorado movie killer, DC Sniper, Chardon kid trasher and Georgia (non-killer, and that sounds so absurd, but good, right?) have many things in common: They all seemed "normal", "friendly and Kind."

                      None ever thought them to be homicidal maniacs. No one close to these people thought them capable of crossing what is considered to  be the terminator between normal people and just plain killers.  Insanity.


                      I think I know why this is, and I  attempt, with this blog, to show,  nearly justify it this as the base thoughts of animalistic behavior in humanity. No longer simple predators for survival. Formerly called  Hunter/Gatherers, simply to feed and sustain family, we gained other areas.

We want, wish, in our 'basic instincts' to crush those that hurt us instead of just eat them. We wish to feel a sense of control over those under us before we devour them, make them hurt, breeding depression.

                      Imagine Ms. Tuff lot this day.

                       Another day in a hallway known so well to her.  Granted, this is yet another school year beginning to her and little doubt she is not enthusiastic.

                       Greeting our children as they enter her school ( and yes, I know damned well this is not the same children you and I know personally. But does that really matter? )

                      Smiling students crossing her over polished tiled flooring: Some saying hi in response to her gesture of "good morning!"

                      Her hoping for each child a great new time of education.

                      Blond future anorexics, husky brunette male jocks, international first born Americans knowing many cultures, possible Astronauts, Crop Farmers, or the greater possibility: The Greater Nation of the Unemployed.


                     She greets all evenly, openly, equally.

                    And she approaches a man with fire arms.


                   Let's be honest here.

                   How cool is this to pump up the adrenaline to make your life mean something and make an impression on others?


                    My personal belief is this: Antoinette Tuff does not "think outside the box." I think this has no 'box' to be held in.  It is this, from either her faith or humanitarian beliefs that makes her different than most.

                   Our Earth needs more people like her.

                   She approached a gun displaying person.

                   Wishing to die or merely her belief in faith?


                    Great Fucking Job!

                    My opinion: You deserve the Congressional Medal of Honor. You so freely displayed uncommon valor, strength under potential fire and were amazingly willing to protect those under your care.

                    I think many of us should consider sending letters to political officials making this great woman of our time a recipient of this Medal.

                  Woman of the Year to say the least.

             Mark William Darus 08222013

                     
                     

                    

               
              

                    


            
                           

                                    

Monday, August 19, 2013

H7N9: My Start on this.



 

                                                        H7N9. Part I
                                                by Mark William Darus



Dr. Chin awoke suddenly from a sound sleep. She felt coldness entomb her as she fought for consciousness. Her place in Hong Kong, a mega story structure.

Her sheets drenched as her pores spewed themselves freely.

Taking inventory, her dark brown eyes opened swiftly, her head bathed in wet black hair rises from a pillow. Looking to her right she sees a movie poster, Vertigo. To it’s left her eyes catch on the painting of a serene field of corn stalks and crisp meadows leading to her hallway.

The hallway going toward her bathroom.

I’m going to puke, shit!

Fuck, hold it back! Hold it b-back.

Her tiny nude form stops about 20 feet from her toilet. Doubling over in pain striking her swiftly like a knifing to the gut, , she vomits on herself as her chin connects below the neck line. Covering her small breasts, stomach and legs with her stomachs rejections, eyes wide in confusion.

She hit’s the floor like a sack of cow manure as she passes out.

 

Other places. Other things occurring.



“Abby, OH MY GOD I LOVE YOU SO MUCH!” Eddie cries as he releases himself into his wife’s vagina. Abby looks at her man, her eyes locked on his as he goes rigid, smashing final thrust into her, yet pulsating onward. Smiling at him, loving him connected in her, she gasps, “I love you, Eddie. All m’heart, darling!”

Smile turning to distress, Eddie begins to cough. Taking his right hand to cover his mouth, his body falls on Abby clipping her left shoulder with his heavy right with a subdued thud as weight meets flesh stoping quickly.

“Eddie, are you okay?” Abby asks in a voice fulfilled yet wondering.

Eddie’s body lay prone across her. Lifeless.

“Eddie!” she cries…

 

Scenes from a nights dream…

 

High Desert Facility: USA, Nevada.

 

“Contain 6 to 11.” a woman said with a thick, low tone. “Inject 3 point 7 235 to it, please.” An average height blond stands, white lab coat covering sexual features, obscuring them. “Did you inject?”

“Yes, of course we did!” an annoyed drone said to his highness.

“AND?” Dr. Phillips inquired harshly. “I want results! DO YOU HEAR ME? RESULTS!?!”

“Yes, Comrade, we’re w-”

“Don’t you ever say Comrade again or I will have you killed! You understand? What country are we in now?” Her voice as sharp as a straight razor.

“Sorry, Major. We are working for the United States Government. Uh, we’re, how do they say? Bro’s,” Ivor said weakly like a child in a foreign land.

“Yes, Bro’s will work with correspondance in an affirmative.”

 

“The virus is mutating quickly, Com, errr, Bro!”

“Very nice, have your crew take break for coffee,” her voiced coldy trailed off down echos of bleak endless hallways.



by MWD, 08192013 part I,

Another video. Posted here because facebook won't.

 
                                          Nature.
video 
 
Thanks to the wonderful people of the Cleveland MetroParks system.
 
Learning video is tough shit. I have so much to gain with each step I take.
 
And no, I haven't forgotten H7N9...
 
Mark

Are You Serious. Reader Comments.



                                                       Are you serious?
                                                      Reader Comments.
                        The Thoughts of Others that Read Psychopathy: Another Life.

Placed by Mark William Darus unedited by their authors.



 

                      25,2,2013 Chloe Prostitute entry. This is some of the best journalistic writing I have ever read! I believe you gave people a viewpoint legal in Las Vegas, yet not in Ohio.

07,3,2013 On dead ears entry. Amazing.

Keep up,

Katy Hauser. USA

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Hey, Fuckwad! There’s casket with your name on it! Can I walk u there, bitch? You r evull all the way! I want t’read yur abituchuary!

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Hey, baby!

Love the shit you share! Tara, Tommy, Colorado to 3 Missing girls. I don’t always agree with you. You make me think in other directions and that’s way better than bullshit reality programming on the History, Discovery and learning channel. I can gather weekly sperm sharers tossing my ass showing thighs in a short skirt.

As you’d write: have them take the head of their penic and enter me.

And then these fuckers would bounce in and out of me and seldom, if ever, either kiss me or touch my nipples.

Thanks, Sir Mark. You touched me with your words.,

Patricia Flemming, India.

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My mate,

Let other tossers spank you about! Spread your seed in their faces and make them taste your salt. They’ve brains lost at the Fisher Price level, my mate.

I’ve gone back to education. Psychology, thanks!

Emery Hillingsworth: Nicaragua.

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Rhino babies prancing about. So seldom do many of us see this. Dancing pups or kittens. Hey, Mum cast a glance at me! I is running and running!

Merk, my kinder loved this video. Danke.

 

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You think China wants us dead?!?! Really? So fucking what as Fisher Price sent them nonleaded based paint to use their manufacturing companies sold that paint for huge profits and made their Fisher Price products laced with lead paint. Really so sad maybe 10 people in your so precious USA were awake and caught it.

You do realize how strong your country has made China emerge, right?

Marc, I know you do see this. But other folK?

Jeffrey Franklyn: Austria.

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I wish to suck you into me. Take your throbbing dick into my mouth as I watch your eyers give up to me. Devouring your seed, holding you as our bodies go limp. Hmmmm, what a great daybreak this would be.

Sveta, Iceland.

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Mark,

You are the Devil! This creation of yours is an abomination profound. You’ve created a land of disgusting free wheeling perversity I scare to think where you will go with in another year if you are not killed or simply slapped down by Gods generous hand!

You’ve made me wish to learn firearms. You are Evil, sir. I will earn a carry permit so if you and I meet.

Wishes to hell to you,

Cynthia, Southern USA.

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Mark,

Who owns the Earths waters (07/20/2013): Nestle. Incredible work on your part! I cannot believe their CEO made a video like this and how could they let this go public. “Water is not a basic human right?”

What a corporate psychopath indeed!

Loved the leading photograph for it. Hands reaching for mere survial.

You’re cold, black of heart and most sincere with your words.

Don’t you ever stop writing. Fuck ‘em all!

Marisa Petrovitch, Las Angeles California.

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Ma’am, You’ve gone to alleys no one wants to read about. Dohnt you see this? I worry for you. I pray for you. You push people too far. I like reading you and such.

Jacob, Son of Jerusalem.

 

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I have no idea what makes you run or what fuels you.



You a maniac seeking an Uprising, a Christian and a Jew looking for a home or just a Hybrid Psychopath?

I‘ve read you for over the last year. I saw you get fired from a ten year job, go months without income losing heat and power, and still writing and sharing. You never lost anything with your words, the edge to your thoughts, the hope you convey for all of us to see and grow with.

Getting a job December 2012, a machine shop. So tiny a place for you to work with a mind asvast as yours. I thought you insane for doing this. I believed you sold out.

I was wrong as you punched on with your words after hours of physical labor. Meaningless drudgery of lifting weight, repeated motions. Placing and packing and running a tow motor feeding machinists areas to aide their productivity.

It took me a while to figure this out. You easily learned and took things in as mere muscle memory for your job as you kept your mind free, untaxed, to write after you were done.

I missed your words at a few points. Unlike working for Progressive Insurance where you always had to appoligize for shit you had no control over, and with those ‘sorry’s’ dragging you down and down and down into pits where sincerity is pointless and idiotic. Maybe making those like you more psychopathic for the corporate good? You cannot tell me that repeatedly saying ‘sorry’ to people you did no wrong to didn’t further make you more psychopathic. Did things like this not waste your sense of regret, remorse, guilt?

Your May 22 2013 entry: Loud Screams from Silent America. 3 Girls Missing. I believe to be your best entry. Granted, The Craker Barrel killings was good, and your beginnings about Chardon sublime. I think you created a whole picture for the reader with this entry. You took us for a walk in your life. Yeah, with many of your entries you do this, but this was your first with pictures giving perspective. The light and the dark. Angles of shots. And I being a Catholic hate to say this, how many churches were so close to this evil and no one knew it was going on?

Mark, you may be a psychopath, but I know you do what you do for others. Why else would you post what you do?

I am Catholic, Mark. I pray for you to keep doing as Jesus tells you to do! You have me in your corner. Please never forget this.

Anna Maria, Austin Texas, USA.

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H7N9. You think our government is a part of wishing a super mutation? Really? You should be reported to Homeland Security for this belief. Fuck that, I’m reporting you! I’m gonna gain a credit from someplace by this. Do you really think you can speak your mind and not be judge by our nation, the UNITED STATES OF AMERICA?

Mitch G. Virginia USA

I am a whore. I am raising two children and doing the best I can. Did I make bad choices for a father that impregnated me? Yes. I was weak and believed them their bullshit. My fault for getting knocked up. I went to temple every week, prayed, realized my guilt, sat humbly and sucked it all in.

Yet I was looked down on. And so did my children. My estranged husband, so high in the Hebrew community here caused them to shun me, make me an outcast, my children and I became lost in biblical faith.



Meck, I met you outside China Town take out by Lorain and West 25. I was crying. I was hurting and wits end a long lost memory to me.

“What can I do to help you, “ you asked. I remember your messed up beard and scraggly hair as you walked smiling toward me.

“what are you?” I asked.

“I am nothing, really.” His voice hit me. Spoken openly and happily.

“My children and I need help, “ I struggled with.

“Well, don’t all his children need help these days?” he said and I understood his meaning. There are so many of us whores with children that do what we can. “Moses was seriously awesome, but so was Jesus. And yeah, a myriad of other beliefs to take your choice from. Organized Religion is so screwed up! Seriously, how much more American could you ask for when it comes to choices?”

Seeing him on my knees, looking up and catching his sihlotette backlit.

“may I ask your name, Please?” he spoke.

“E-e-vlyn,”

“Take this, “ he said.

He left me with a phone number and a shelter list.

I grew from that within hours.

I asked him his name as we parted company and found him later on his blog.

My kids would be totally orphaned and I would be dead if not meeting you on that foggy night on West twentififth.

Mark, how tortured is your soul to walk amongst others so freely nailed by abuse and drug addiction that you are comfortable in this place?

How many dues do you have to pay to gain your place in death, Mark?

How much pain can you take in as you write disgusting aspects of others, as you hide your own pain of pasts you’ve solely clipped the surface of?

You ex-wife, mates of decades, fewest of friends, DID ANY OF THEM REALLY KNOW YOU AT ALL?

Well, did they?

You are not afraid of death. You have embraced it, made it fond company, and thru Christ this makes you fearless as you write and post.

Too bad there are so few like you.,

Tina Summars-Evans. Former USA, currently South Africa. Not going back.

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I Would to thank everyone that took to time to send me their thoughts.

I would love to post more, but time does not give me this.


 

You have your thoughts and beliefs. Hold them in your hearts. Fight til your last dying breath!



Mark William Darus 08202013
 

Tuesday, August 13, 2013

H7N9 Virus: Won't We Have a Lovely Time?



                                 H7N9 VIRUS: Won’t we have a lovely time?
                                            Intro to Full Thought.
                                         By Mark William Darus.


                                    Call this a first strike on my part.



              Called a Bird Flu as it started a while ago, then only appearing in China with fatalities. And think about less than two hundred deaths in a country that had their parents exterminate their female babies for population control. Given this, Can anyone really trust the less than 200 deaths in Mainland China based on this Intel?
http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/H7N9#Mortality



                 Look at this pesky bugs history, please.
 
H1N1:Swine? http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/H1n1



                  Lovely mutations and the never ending human drive to be GODS. drive in genetics/ DNA and Mitochondrial . New
Frontiers we can create in human form. Discovering in sterile dishes, continued and hunger further fed via Unfortunately Poor intel


             Call me bastard, sir?

What would you call my henchmen? Clones, perhaps?

 

                 Dr. Peidmont: Gazing fondly, happily as just before a mother dies, she presses her right breast to her new born baby, giving it a last chance for food as she dies. She gave this tiny once known as a parasite certain immunities. Lids shutting, the mothers thoughts closing: “Live, my child! Live on…”

         Dr Peidmont  emotionlessly speaks to his colleagues in a baritone, "Watch closely, Gentleman. She is trying to save her child from destiny."

                What a scientist might call a child, others given size , might declare this floating form a mutation of DNA and wish it to be humanities evolution.

               "She is giving her  child defense's via DNA, Sir!" Adams spoke quickly, carrying the form of a male and tones of a woman. Pimples wrinkling his 22 year old eye-holder. His body happily wearing Depends to contain his glory without embassesment  and Red Bulls chugging him further.  Gaining control over his bodily functions, muscles in his arms enlarge, a light haired man named West

              A nod from Peidmont,  and the mans head sliced at mid neck line in a public bowling alley parking  lot tumbles into murky memory behind the Dyson Repair Center on  Lorain Ave.

              "Sir, nine died when we lost containment. I wou-" a man with a British accent was cut off by a far condescending female tone of Rio.

              "Nine dead is small. Give me damage reports!"


A tiny blond haired female form outside the womb sucks the last her mothers shrinking tits can perform. Hands, fists. lashing out means different. The satellites have a fix on her....




For her, Alice, there is no backwards as her world dissolves into shapes mimicking sounds as smells transform into solid rock.


Her lips are pulled away from her mother by blue surgeons gloves as a stern look crosses her green eyes.

Tired, so tired, Alice thinks....

Alice dreams....


 

For life.

We run.

To Believe,

We kill much further…




A Child viewed is sheltered and man destroys the Earth.

She is the child of many religions.

She shifts as the highest and the putrid form of attempt their worst spreads sickly venom high, "Fire!" is ordered as they aimed at a body, bodies on cold stainlness steel.


Even from cloning, the chlorinating of a brain, they keep trying as they pose to the public " We're trying us! All of us at the CDC./... \"

    




And to make many think  the importance of females in religions are  nothing more than cattle 



Mark William Darus 08132013
 

Walk A Mile by Ryn Cricket.


                                          Walk A Mile...
                                          by Ryn Cricket.

She said, “Girl,
you need to break out of your comfort zone.”
I was confused.
Comfort zone?
I have NO comfort zone.
She was saying this
in response to my
previous confused look
as she rattled off directions,
in Chinese, of the good store
to buy clothes for my daughter
who is suddenly growing like a weed.
I had only been living in Shanghai a couple of months.
And then I started thinking…
About the first time I went camping around
the state of Arizona,
and then backpacking alone
in Alaska
without a plan,
going to an ashram in the Adirondack Mountains
without a penny in my pocket,
my two years in Peace Corps
sleeping on the floor
in a house I shared
with a 7-foot snake and 2 tarantulas
that didn’t pay rent.
Living with an abusive husband,
and going through chemo, radiation,
no voice
and not even able to drink a drop of water;
I am a single mother, living in Shanghai
with my two preschool daughters
and this might be the most comfortable time of our lives,
But I wondered how a person’s perception could be so skewed.
And then I thought about Charlie
this guy I met in the ice cream aisle of the store.
We were both buying vanilla ice cream
because we both were recovering from throat cancer
and that was exactly ALL that we had in common.
He said, “I am really good judge of character,”
and then proceeded to tell me how he completely understood
“how I am building walls,”
“How I am cutting myself off from people.”
and “How I am turning away my friends.”
He got the same confused look.
–from me.
I had never been so surrounded by friends.
I had friends paying my insurance bills,
paying my rent,
taking care of my girls,
bringing food and money,
cleaning my house,
and checking up on me
all day, everyday.
George Bailey had nothing on me.
But this man Charlie,
had told the same bad joke 3 times
to 3 different people
and was so negative and off-putting
that I just didn’t want to talk to HIM.
I understand projection.
I understand perspective.
My Mohican friend gave me
my third-stage Native name
of Standing Wave.  
He said it’s that place in the river
where it looks calm as glass on the surface
but below there’s a rapid undertow.  
He always saw me so clearly.
 
Ryn Cricket August 12 2013
as seen on WordPress.
 
Authors Notes: Thanks Ryn once again for allowing me to share your work. I could add such things like: "keep up the good work!" "Never Stop Writing!" That would be profoundly idiotic of me though. I know damn well you will never lose the faith and passion that courses thru your veins.
 
Mark William Darus 08132013

Thursday, August 8, 2013

A Babe of the Modern Age: The Children Of This Blue Marble R R Future.

                                         A Babe of the Modern Age.
                                                   Rhinobaby II.
                                    A short film with original music.

                                            A SlamTraktor Production.
                                          (all rights and lefts reserved.)

                                     I shot this footage November 2012 at the Cleveland Metroparks Zoo. Cleveland Ohio USA. In the last two days, I edited this, wiped out the background noise and synthesized music for it.

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Thank you for watching the first production from SlamTraktor Productions.
SlamTraktor is the Multimedia division of Psychopathy: Another Life. Video freely used with simple permission. (just email).
 
              Authors note: I would like to thank Those that brought and continuously bring inspiration to me in word, sight and sound.
 
 
             My Higher Power: You got me back into photography but a year ago. I had no idea why you had me buy that Kodak Easyshare from Big Lots when I really didn't have to spare cash to do it. You made me go digital and fired my mind as you said to me in such a calm and even voice: "You write okay, M'boy, you are descriptive squared and all.  You do reach people of wide spectrum, putting them into scenarios unknown to them. I gave you a gift and you now run with it: Being able to express your mind without fear of rejection. You are a student of life, and from that, you respect how I touched your life at birth and share it with others being a teacher. You were given an eye to capture things  with a mind to describe thoughts sharply with written word. The grace to capture photographs and express about them. Be not afraid, I said to you over a year and half ago. So glad you listened and never wavered at any point."
 
Thanks to my Facebook Friends and their encouraging words. You all inspired me with your thoughts to go further with my photography.
 
Thank you to Ryn Cricket and Deborah Glaefke Gilbert! You placed my photographs as covers for your books.  Thanks most profoundly!
 
And BIGGEST/HUGEST thanks to momma and baby Rhino! Thank you most high for the chance to film you and your child as it runs about! You and your kind are endangered. You and your baby are amongst the slimmest of Minorities to merely walk with us as your Lands become nothing more than monetary gains to select humans.  May those of us enlightened do what we can to prevent your extinction.  
 
Personally speaking: I guess everything is a form of inspiration to me. Even in my psychopathic being, why is it I can find the so-called Silver-Lining in the darkness so many of the desolate angels, feeling their religions most highly cast blame to others casting off their own guilt for its making?
 
Answer:
"Because they can't dance like I can!" Dr Greg House, TV show: HOUSE.
 
Hoping you liked the video.
 
Mark William Darus
SlamTraktor Production LTD.
08082013
 
 
 
 
 
 
 
                                       

Tuesday, August 6, 2013

Animals. A Video with original music. Blog Exclusive. and other things.


                                  Animals. A Video with original music.
                                               by Mark William Darus.

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                    Filmed at Rolling Ridge Ranch: Millersburg Ohio USA. August 2013.

                     Yeah, amateurish. Still learning a new art. Pretty cool at 51 years old and still believe there is no box for us to think out of. I have so much to learn and love it!

                     I try to learn something each and every day. I freely admit to being ignorant when it comes to so many aspects of life: sewing, Physics, Brain surgery or a heart bypass surgery(though I think I could do this one).

                     This is my belief.  I think some of you might know this already and hold it high within your being.

                      The Secret to feeling young eludes  of you as you go toward tummy tucks, anorexia and or a belief in Infomercials in the wee hours broadcasting aimed directly at your temples. You so willingly forget the strength of your own will.

                      All you simply need to do is try something different and challenge yourself. Leave your comfort place for a few moments a day and learn things you didn't think yourself possible of.  Toss yourself into an unknown area and never, ever care of looking yourself a fool to others.

                       You were a baby once. You forgave yourself your failings then. Learning to crawl, bank off objects and learn to stand. Eventually to walk, perhaps even run and the fallings, tumblings and bashing face to pavement.

                       As a babe, you cried and screamed and wailed madly!

                       Why should this be any different as you became an adult? Granted, you don't always have a mother or father to hold you. They may not be around due to distance or death, so why not fall back on memories happy in your past. Go from tricycle to bicycle. From simple reading to sincere composition,  to gaining strength to differ from our parents views.

                             Life and Learning are NeverEnding stories with those of us with eyes vigilant. I guess the trick is to merely keep ones eyes open.

                       

                        You learned to crawl.

                         To mumble sounds into words.

                         Words, perhaps reaching growls.

                          Thoughts like jigsaw puzzles completed.

                          Personal Expression.




                     Enjoy and Thanks,
                     MWD08062013