Thursday, October 12, 2023

Another update for my sister, Heidi

Another Update for my sister Heidi. Her amputation surgery that was scheduled for last Monday got bumped to tomorrow, 10/13/2023. Apparently it is now scheduled for next week sometime.... WHAT THE FUCK IS THIS SHIT?!?! I cannot imagine, while very sedated, what her mind is running with as her wishes to just get this over with and it repeatedly gets postponed like some Blossom Concert due to understaffing or bad weather predictions. If you were in her shoes, about to lose one of them, HOW WOULD YOU FEEL with running delays ? I LOVE MY SISTER AND HAVE THE BEST OF MEMORIES WITH HER AND EVERYTHING WE DID IN OUR YOUTH. They (Medical professionals) tell you need a fast Amputation to prevent a bone/skin killing infection to spread further and THEN FUCKING REPEATEDLY SET THE DATE FARTHER OUT??? Is it just me or does this seem horrifically wrong? One has to wonder if Hospitals make more money on Amputations the longer a patient with good Medicals Beneifits can aid their larger plans when needing to stay in the hospital and CANNOT be at their home given IV pain-Meds and an inability to walk by themselves. I am sorry if any of you find my thoughts unsettling. I can only share them with you. PRAY FOR HEIDI, MY SISTER, PLEASE. Thank you for consideration to her. =Mark William Darus

Monday, October 9, 2023

How does one write about a their sister having a foot and partial leg amputated?

How does one write about a their sister having a foot and partial leg amputated? I feel utterly lost writing this. My sister Heidi is going under the blade tomorrow have a foot and part of leg taken from her due to some infection. I just found this out tonight and my mind is spinning so frantically toward her when she gave me this info tonight. >sorry if I get redundent. Bare with it, please.) Notified work that I would NOT be there tomorrow, sent an email to my plant manager and notified my crew/work family. I cannot imagine the losing a foot or leg. I sincerely cannot take in such horrific news as given by Doctors thay say you desparetly need such or worse could occur in your life. She was told after sugery she would gain prothetics and therapy and learn to live again in a normal life. FUCK! I love my sister, and am so sorry she has to go thru this. I so remeember all of us as kids on Scranton Rd in Cleveland running around during all seasons the 1970's tossed at us. Didn't matter how cold or hot it got, Heidi always ran with us either with hide and seek or football. Such precious memories fill my heart and am so grateful for that. I ask all of you to wish her the best as she is about to experience a change in life most of us would never have to deal with. Thank you, Mark This song was always special to Heidi and I. https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=PbS56p4Xt4I&list=RDP19BpRijJD4&index=2

Sunday, October 8, 2023

Thoughts on aging

 


                                                 Thoughts on aging.


             As we all get older we discover things changing not just in Society but within our bodies as well.

             It is a sunny and windy day in Eastlake, Ohio, USA. The sounds of Lake Erie's crashing water  against the shoreline can be heard from our home about a quarter mile from it, making me smile, get strength from nature with its  power and impact.  Leaving my home this morning, smelling the chilly Autumn  air as dying leaves begin to fall, harkening  in its Season for all to embrace and enjoy. 

            Another season coming for us to enjoy and cherish with it's visual beauty and smell.

            As we age, I personally   believe we take more interest in such  Seasonal Changes as we will have fewer left to see, react  and take part in.

      


            The older I get, realizing my lifespan is dwindling down to a few years if lucky,  perhaps less as things do happen. It is my wish to try to express my love for life both with my words via sudden thought,  to share and photography and maybe inspire others to do and share the same in their lives.

            The inspiration behind this post came from my wife, who last Friday got a spinal injection to eliminate pain. She's a 40 year NURSE that clearly her decades of service caught up with her.  Well, her sitting in the bedroom this afternoon asked me to do some laundry for her. The laundry room is a two downward steps from the kitchen. No sweat for me, not so much for her.  I told her I would and she handed me a bundle of Nurse wear, underwear and such. 

          Not sure why, having done this so many times before for her, a thought hit me.

          There is a certain fragility in life as we age with one another. There are areas that we can do for one another for whatever reason: Be it love, admiration or mere respect, there is so much we can do to aide others in your life. 

              


         We can all be vibrantly  active and have  it swept from us in a slender  moment of time for a host of reasons. We could stumble over an idle dog-toy and roll an ankle, trip over a curb and falling into a Icecube cooler/hitting your head or a work accident. Life is FRAGILE.  RESPECT THAT, NOT ONLY WITH YOURSELF BUT OTHERS AS WELL.

          Life is simple  when it comes to consideration for others. Something as simple as looking around you when you enter a  Speedway, convenience store, seeing a somewhat wobbly person walking and just taking a moment to hold a door open for them could aide them in ways amazing.  What would a few seconds hurt you in doing so for someone?

           Well, I'm about to place my wifes laundry into to the dryer, completing a cycle of this day.

          Aging is tough.

          Funny how I may be 61 years old, I really don't feel that old. Not sure why this is. 

         It is my wish each and everyone of you have a great and safe week ahead!

               


          Please consider my thoughts.

            -Mark