Wednesday, December 30, 2015
What became of 2015?.. What have you learned and grown from it?
words and Christ given thoughts for sharing
Mark William. Darus,
Looking back on 2015....
As a new year approaches dawning, what will you remember? What memories will you cherish as others you cast far and away? Considering all the interactions you've had with so many walking/talking and dare i say thinking humans, how many of the 31,536,000 seconds of a years time will take hold in your heart?
Okay, at least as far as I'm concerned, it's a totally loaded question. Sorry, but hey, you know the way i write.
As I look back on twenty 15, now listening to a band called Gunship: Tech Noir, (which my daughter Becki gave me a listen from her husbands Razors when I saw her last Wednesday. Over a year and half had passed without our togethernous. So good it was to see her again with my eyes, to feel her embrace so missed over time and life as diversions, we try so hard to justify and usually fail over time. That once bright and shining road of best intention sometimes sweeps down murky desolate pathways, often causing separation. Becki, my youngest daughter, I am sorry for this. A day never passed without thinking of you. How you were doing and things you saw and felt).
Let's take a quick peek back at 2 zero 1 five:
ISIS remains doing its thing across the globe.They so loving killing others for the benefit of doing, forgetting their own rules say they should first try to convert before killing. This group of Islamic extremists slayed hundreds/thousands (this depending on your news source, American media tends to dumb this down to lessen impact. Why do you think they'd do this?
Being on Fbook and having a blog hitting over eighty countries, i have many friends from countries that often send me news articles from their countries. Needless to say, whom should we believe: the site wanting us to be more updated with newer and better apps or the one that simply tells us as THEY saw it?
France took several hits this year as ISIS raged on, as did many other countries that did not hit the mainstream news with lives being lost like a childs tears in the rain. I prayed as I heard about each of their events. I prayed recklessly as i think a good christian should do: YOU PRAY LIKE YOUR HEART IS A SHOTGUN OF THE LIVING LORD! I spewed, chucked, heaved my meager souls wishes to all involved, blasted my hopes and prayers for them to find the peace of christ, and if not with HIM, than with something that also breeds a sense of Hope and Love toward others instead of some disgusting ever-igniting fuel for vengeance and body-count-payback bitch hunkering over their weaker shoulder.
I prayed aloud as I do more often than not. Oddly, as two zero 1 five played out in my life, that became harder to do in the general course of a day in my life, In time, we;ll get to that.
Damn! Sorry I forgot about the myriad of shooters hitting American Soil wasting lives in spree, serial, passion, and homicidal urges, mass killings . USA SHOOTINGS 2015 , Maybe some of these events hit your radar via radio, TV or internet, perhaps catching your heartstrings for a slender fragment of your day. I hope you took a time and a word in prayer., or not. It's okay.
It really is okay. Learning is a life long event for those who find an open mind and heart within themselves. Easier learning for those tossing pride to the curb as well as materialism, leaving 'The Comfort Zone" and seeking a deeper, more spiritual life/light to guide them, I'm not saying you have to hit Rock Bottom to find this state, but I'm told it helps.
A few years back, in an email (nearly 12 pages long)I sent my eldest sister Holly, I told her that for those like me, there is no such thing as Rock Bottom. I told her we'd neither acknowledge nor allow such event to become or define us and we'd merely continue about and trundle onward for whatever reason propelled us.
In that email sent to Holly, which she said was the most lucid thing I had ever written, coming from a Grad of CWRU with a degree in Journalism, created in early 2012, came as a result of bipolar meds taking hold, granting me a focus to write once again. I thanked my savior, he had given me a chance to express myself clearly. It was from that email to my sister Holly I created my Psychopathy blog on a dismal Saturday at Progressive Insurance. I had thought: hmmm, if she thought that email was good, maybe others might like or learn from what I have to share...
Granted, I am a textbook example of an asshole. Seriously, ask anyone that truly knows me and they'll tell you that about me. One that believes in hope, positive thoughts and enduring personal elements all should have to find a better day for others to share. Well, I have no issue being called an asshole, dickhead, Conservative Republican fuckwad, Suppository of Democrat Party Agenda or anything else for that matter, so long as I do/say what i believe in my walk with Jesus and his Dad. God and his Kid give me strength, an ability to persevere, stand tall, hold true and keep an open mind toward and a heartfelt respect for others.
Doesn't your Higher Power grant you the same if you're strong enough to embrace it?
Be True to yourself....
How many of us have been here?
Tuesday, September 1, 2015
Getting Married on September five 2015
I have known Gretchen for over 15 years and desire her more each and every day in my heart than the over 5400 days we've been together. This tugging, pulling toward her everlasting has been truly astounding. The surprising highs and devastating lows we've dealt one another on our journey amazes me further that we are still together in the first place.
I have little doubt Jesus and his Dad had much to do with our still being together.
In our early days,some 15 years ago, taking each other in to its fullest measure, devouring one another with insatiable desires of both felt love and flesh, connecting. Looking back, hindsight being 20/20, we would only screwed things up worse when I asked her to live with me. Sincerely speaking, we did not know that then. I did not know that then, We based many a decision then on economic survival, yet our hearts were on the right track toward helping each other.
On that early living together, albeit in Sin, a brilliant gift was given us during our sinning. >>>Oh, I know how this must sound totally wrong in my expression , yet please hear me out as I see/feel/express things far differently than most. My ability to express myself has made me loathed and hated by many as they considered it blasphemy while others think it true and just.
My very own expression of thought in my writing has cost me more than a few friends. Hurtful to me, yet understanding their need for distance, loving them all the same. God yelled at me many times to Stay The Course, So I meekly did as told, hating the Fall-out, crying at the loss of many in my life, cursing His Name while obeying all the same.
My Sisters will not allow Gretchen in their homes for Christmas as they think her to be the worst thing that ever happened in my life. They would have me with them yet could not tolerate two to three hours with them if Gretchen be at right place by my side.
How would Jesus and God grant us gifts AS we continually sin before them?
I don't look at my past transgressions as a rationalization in any aspect of my life. I sinned relentlessly, did what I did with others and more often than not found myself a counselor to those I sinned with. For the longest time of my life , confused greatly by how so many girlfriends confused love for affection. .Eventually learning how this happens during their stressed growing years while reading countless psychology books since age 12 Guiding others for their reaching, learning, growing higher grounds they could not imagine in gaining their dream-future.
I do not and will not condone sin while in my background i have delved into many. I have shattered many of the Ten Commandments. Yet I can understand sins motivations. I understand why people make choices to become life-mates without Jesus at their pulpit. Choose drugs, alcohol and sex as a quick cure-all for loneliness, depression and casting off others . Why so many take another lover/mate to serve as a human-band aide for a quick cure to heal their pain, self doubts instead of just dealing with it and learning from it and taking the Christ given time to heal thy self. They, get remarried within a year and end up in divorce court down the road. I KNOW so many aspects of how we let these things happen within us. I know this so damn well I find myself at a loss to know why I haven't remarried far sooner. I think I know why though. I have always been a somewhat faltering junkie of the words of Moses and Jesus, and I always strive to give each encounter my best,When I say "faltering junkie" I do not attempt to shout the words of scripture to others as quite frankly i cannot sincerely quote any passage of the bible. I simply share what I feel about Jesus and God in my words and thoughts and hope I am doing them right in the process. I know when I fuck it up though: I get a flat tire, write up by a boss for something I did not have a hand in, a traffic ticket i did not earn. Funny, i just take that in stride, smile at those accusing, consider it Murphys law and go on.
Here we go on my beliefs Jesus has a way of working even during our sin.
Gretchen found the inner strength to become the mother I think she always hoped to be as I prodded her furiously while risking her cutting me off from her life in fear, I merely told her what I thought about taking her son instead of his father granting guardianship to a mutual friend at the stroke of pen to make it all neat, tidy and legal. I told her I would stay by her side no matter what while she took her son back to daily life. It's ugliness, delays, personal pitfalls while sharing smiles, laughter and deep happiness just doing your best and being together.
Without me knowing anything at the time in regards to myself, without copulation, I would grow, learn and find a son in my life. A male kid to share much I shared with my daughters only different. Her son in my life would grow in sharing many elements neither of us would have found otherwise. How is not a blessing from God almighty?
Even in my sin of our union together back then, I found myself giving her the right words to make it happen for her. I was nothing more than a mouthpiece, and I am so happy to share this: I knew this even then. I've often told others:" Well, if it hadn't been me, someone else would have said this to you. "
Many decades ago, my sisters saw a pattern in my relationships. I never had a 'like/or physical similarity type constant, They called me a Rescuer. They would pronounce this with such disdain and sadness in tone. All I can say on that is this; I acted with each partner as i had the power to do so.
On the Neat, Legal and tidy....
Where would a mind play decades down a road of regrets when you realize how much you have missed in a childs life as you get older and time does its dance on your conscience?
And with that I end my sermon on Jesus's gifts to us as we sin, while we sin and in so sinning, by he and his fathers grace, an incredible flower can blossom from self doubt, fear and personal loathing.
The closer the day comes, so many changes heading my way quickly as things fall into proper place have surrendered fully in the arms of Jesus, (my heart seeking new employment, moving from the only city/county i have ever known, leaving my comfort zone of Urban WestSide existence and the ever increasing homicide rate around it. ) and knowing in my heart of hearts this is where I should walk with such an amazing woman at side that tried so hard to steer me away from 'my Zone' so long ago as she understood I had more to learn. She, staying with me after several break ups, . I Pledge myself to her, Gretchen, as in four days we are about to be married in the eyes of not only those in physical presence but Jesus as well as we profess our unity and love for one another.
Is not our lord a forgiving lord? Our God, not an Awesome God?
My belief: We would not be getting married if those two elements were not so in our lives.
Is not our lord a forgiving lord? Our God, not an Awesome God?
My belief: We would not be getting married if those two elements were not so in our lives.
Friday, August 14, 2015
Here's the Video I found that says it best.
"LET'S GET OUT OF HERE!!!!!!"
a MILE AWAY, LET'S GET OUT OF HERE!
Dearest Jesus and your father, I beg you to grant peace to all affected and killed by this. Please forgive their sins before you as they died simply working for a living.
I cannot imagine the horror of going to work and having it violently go berzerk and exploding, Sending concussive blast waves that decimate windows a mile and a half away.
My brothers and sisters: Think of the homeless created by this. They living in company dormitories that no longer exist as the blasts leveled them flat like a pancake.
Think of life living under the suns heat without shelter. No longer having mere sink faucet to grant you water to satisfy thirst. Dehydrating, your children suffering, their eyes going flat and lifeless.
Why is it when I say such to Americans things like this, they so simply quip: Well, they made bad life choices....
And then I ask them if they attend a church, most responding: Every sunday.
Imagine a life out in the cold.
Well, during the summer months, few think about those challenges...
Thursday, August 13, 2015
Brooklyn Messenger: Into a new decade!
Version -17, 2 cyber Addishun, 1966.
Oct. 2, 2012 send date.
Our late October Clam was a HUGE success!
An amazing turn-out came forth to enjoy BMUMC first annual Clambake! Many showed to display financial support for our beloved community in Christ on such a chilly November afternoon! Cold as it was, hearts grew most warm when the massive pressure cooker blew to smithereens!
So blessed were we that several of our flock were paramedics and quickly treated those that encountered second degree steam burns and massive shrapnel intrusions . So quick did they respond after guzzling so many of our "Serving Those for the Benefit of Others' free Bud Lites the average person would have faltered, fainted or just freaked out. Not these men and women, no sireeeee! They gave prayer, most giving praise to our Lord chorally stating:" Holy Shit!" Frantically Dialing 911 with the cells requesting aide, though sometimes nailing 411 instead, being greeted with calm female voice: "How can I direct your call?"
Many further away from this unfortunate event were happy to receive a baptism of corn kernels and clam hunks that descended from Gods blue skies above them
“Baptism by falling corn! How utterly unique!” said Abner Jockhead, smile beaming from him as he wiped corn from his loving children’s crying heads.
A slender brunette lady wearing a slinky royal blue dress, lacking underwear lines, vastly 'Coked-Up', ventured her thoughts: "This is sooooo cool! I've caught popcorn tossed at me with open mouth, but clams?!?! Never in my life! God be blessed most high!!!! Clams from Heaven! Tastes like Crab though"
“Wow, can’t say I’ve seen this before!” an unidentified bleach blond wearing the devils short-shorts said enthusiastically. "Anyone know when the 22 bus crosses Archwood and West 25?"
So many gave loud rejoicing to our lord Jesus, powering us with glorious words of praise, several asking for Jesus to save them: “Jesus Christ!” “Oh my F76k*&G GOD!” “Dear Lord, save us all!”
One plainly dressed brunette female, who looked Amish, firmly asked for our lord to take her moodiness away from her: “CAN SOMEONE PLEASE REMOVE THIS CRAB CLAW FROM MY EAR?”
Interesting further still were the amount of Baptists (undoubtedly Holy rollers) that shared with us this fine day. They began frantically rolling around on the ground, telling all how they felt their hearts engulfed with fire of Jesus. “JESUS, GOD ALMIGHTY, I’M ON FIRE!” “I am BURNING, Lord!” God in heaven, rescue us!”
Some of the Baptists even experienced the freakish phenomenon of spontaneous human confusion! Thank goodness a few stout parishioners had blankets in their trunks to put out their flames!!!
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Soon after the god-filled members of Clevelands EMS units swept those praising God away, we sat and ate a hearty and wondrous meal of exquisite Alaskan clams, Cambodian chicken, Paraguay corn and many a great side dishes prepared by our very own Chapter of the Blue Haired Ladies Guild!
More than one in attendance graciously remarked how the clams tasted like crab and the corn had the flavor of refried beans. A few of our Chinese congregation spoke of how chicken had the distinctive and surely imported texture of boiled dogs.
Our Minister shared with us.
"My children, as bread is broken, as we sip, and I must add, the finest of the David Brainless Lounge’s well stocked bar, and at .75 cents a glass a true bargain, not to mention a new craft draft beer from The Cleveland Sewage Companies fine line of ales and lagers, we are sharing divine inspiration at its sublime peaks at a reasonable price! Far gone are the days when we scurried about aimlessly like tiny microbes in search of grandiose parking lot ventures with an evil desire for further real estate!”
Pausing briefly, taking in a generous swig from his tall glass of Cleveland Sewage Companies East Ohio Gas Explosion 1944 IPA, he proudly went on to say how we, Brooklyn Memorial United Methodist Church, have come a long way and will reach greater heights in the coming years. He spoke of the immense generosity of CSC Brewing Co and how they donated kegs for our event. As he exited our grand outdoor pulpit, unquestionably from poor construction, he lost balance and fell to ground where he soon fell asleep. Snoring loudly to the lord, perhaps having sleep apnia, he rested tranquilly on the weed infested tarmac.
Freddie (Alkie) Peters quickly swaggered up to Pastor Ivan and covered him lovingly with a somewhat tattered and vomit smelling Cleveland Browns quilt. “Yes sirrie Bob, he’s out the like the Cavaliers hitting a par-five with a slapshot!. He’s snoring now!” Such sublime eloquence, Freddie. Thanks for sharing!
After eating, we had a contest! Courtesy of Long Johns Putt and Stuff, we had a small driving range set up for those that wished to try their hand at golf! Aimed directly at Wishmiers Funeral home, the winner was Ed Marzecian, slicing hard right and missing the netting completely. He took out of four of their v windows! The prize was a coupon for 15 dollars for our own Methodish restaurant.
Truly, at five dollars a plate, a great time was had by all!
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Accepting Gays all the way!
We dancing to the Rainbow, ho ho ho dont'ya know????
Taking a very long time for our church to accept Hispanics, Negros, Croatians, Polish and Negros into our fold, we now accept Gay people!
Their turn out has been great and highly profitable for our church! Not only can they sing triumphantly, make great interior decorators, they are amazing cooks and generally contribute 20% of their income!
Truly a win-win on this! Praise god!
From the Pastors rain damaged desk and beer soaked mind:
My flock, we took a hit on the Clambake. Due a clerical error we purchased King Crab instead of clams and spent a great deal more than we received. We so grossly undercharged patrons of this event we lost approximately 5 thousand dollars.
We have to be far clearer in our thinking as we open our hearts and souls to propel our church into the decade that began two years ago.
Hindsight being twenty-twenty, what will we think last week three months ago?
I am sure we can do much better!
Pastor Ivan Chanowitz.
Our church is being attacked!
Help us fight the insurgents of evil as our church is facing lawsuits on many fronts!
Like Germany in World War II, Cuba’s Bay of Pigs or the Sherman’s March to the Sea, there’s always going to be collateral damage with any history making event.
Though we religiously sympathize with the burn victims and many a broken window from our First Annual Clambake, we surely cannot be held responsible for what can only be called ‘gods will.’
We are currently seeking Christian lawyers to help us stop these ferocious firings across our bow.
In closing this electronic entry.
As we face yet another great month, we must realize our importance in Christ as we
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Our menu now sports Grilled Salmon, Salmon Cakes and Gelfilte Fish Sandwiches sure to please the pallets of the Jews. We also have the tastiest Mothaball (I have never heard of matzah balls before and have difficulty in spelling it. I must think I was given a poor spelling. After all, what food has moths and balls in it?) soup you have ever experienced. So rich in flavor, heart-attackingly drenched in salt with the purest of ducks blood added to it, we think we nailed this multi-cultural favorite down cold yet served hot!
Ever heard of a Kosher BLT? Well, we have it! Succulent Indonesian grown Lettuce married with the finest of Ukrainian Tomatoes pulled together by the fabulous Bologna of Greenland! All ingredients piled high and nestled between to best smoked wood-added bread Taiwan has to offer!
Grape Kool-Aid added to our extensive beverage menu! This classic drink, loved by grandparents, parents and kiddies alike, now served here! Please pray as you drink it in memory of the Jonestown incident.
Did I mention the Cajun Greens as a side dishes?
We’ve also found a place lacking on our breakfast menu: Authentic Southern Grits! An incredibly tasty dish created by toothless immigrants that don't speak InGrish.
We’re quite sure this new addition to our menu will bring many smiles, and dare we say, the heartiest belches we have ever witnessed!
At Methodish, we believe the bottom-line is more bread for less bread!
For the Community Around us.
Believing our mission is take those needing help into our realm, we are proud to announce that we’ve employed those around us! In the last month we have hired no less than 6 children of God! Taking in the homeless, purchasing soul-filled discarded WWII cots for them to rest on for a good nights sleep. Placing them in the vacant area adjacent to boiler room for comforting heat and a profound sense of communal joining, we felt it most necessary to give them the best we can meagerly offer.
And at 100 bucks a month, how can we go wrong, my brethren? Sure, some may say we are cheap in payment for services rendered, yet know this brothers and sisters: It’s not like they aren’t getting Welfare, SSI or Disabled Veterans pay. We are giving them the chance to feel useful once again. A chance to feel needed.
We’ve placed two of them in the service of Methodish, and in my opinion and highly paid beliefs, a mighty place to meet Jesus halfway.
In fact, it was William Mark Daruskinheim that said it best when he was sent to cook for us: “I gives drugged self to Jimmy Jones and bak’ries of grape muffins! Thunks, Methadone church takin’ muh in wit my scabby arms ’n falling hairs. Beings a half Nigra, half Asian, half Holstein and two thurdz Whiteness guy, I hopes a’gin! Can I cook Jew food? I’s can bbq’d salmon b’ter than a’nee mofo! Swears, Allah, Fiat be reincarnated, I can does m’bestest. Cants waits fuh ya at tries my grape Kool-Aid! It’s duh bomb!”
So enormously graced to have one of such enthusiasm under our dome, we can only be granted the highest endowments of our Lord.
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Heidi’s Brother: Mark William Darus 1002032012
Authors Note: this is a SATIRE of the church mailings I grew up with. Of the many that read P:SA from many Countries, I ask you do not take offense to this. It was written for the sake of humor.
Granted, where the USA is concerned, you should take some offense as we, pardon the pun, farm out most things to other countries and sell our own people short.
It was my pleasure to write this.
I dedicate this to you, Holly, Heidi and David H. <perhaps I should send this Wayne S? lol>
Friday, July 31, 2015
A Child Lost Like Tears in the Rain,
Mark William Darus.
Decomposing Toddler Found in Apartment.
I am so disgusted and angry by this I don't know how to begin writing about it.
I heard about this while driving to work listening WTAM on the radio. I was swigging my Dark Roast coffee from Speedway, puffing an L&M Turkish Blend 100, happy this was my last day of work this week. I have Friday off as I need to go downtown to get a copy of divorce decree to get a marriage license as well as have my Trailblazers front end get a serious mechanical overhaul.
A commercial about Home Windows, with an enthusiastic female singer, trailed off...
"A toddler was found dead in a crib in Medina today! It is believed this child had been dead for some time due to the state of decomposition..."
I screamed aloud, put my right fist into roof of my SUV, "NOOOOOOO!!!!" This at the intersection of Bagley and Pearl rd, on a sunny afternoon, my eyes seeing kids running into the McDonalds for Happy Meals with parents in tow.
I heard another crying, sobbing louder than I had ever heard before. I looked to the direction.
I saw a blond haired lady with dark aviator sunglasses. She looked so disturbed and messed up. She was trying to wipe away her tears without taking her shades off. I'm quite certain many would video this for a You Tube entry, but not me.
"You Okay? " such a stupid question to toss to another while watching them hurting. I so sometimes believe myself idiotic and dense.
"I-Iiiiiiiiiiiiiii, rayyyyyyyyy-D-OH st-st-st-st0ry of dddddead kid." she struggled while trying quench tears with a handkerchief, her delicate hands clearly trembling about her face.
Red light went to Green.... no one honked. Odd....
"I heard as well just now. I am hurt by news like this. Do you believe in Jesus?"
"YYYYYESSSSS" shades off, her eyes meeting mine.
"Let's pray as we go about our day for this child, okay?"
She went her way as i went mine.
I think of the past. Songs about people cut down, slaughtered and anthems created to have a nation rise.
4 Dead in Ohio
Yet so many children are slaughtered each and every year in my nation while no songs are made for them. No monuments raised in their honor as they never had a chance to live after being born. Their tiny bodies in various states of decomposition, perhaps being gnawed on by animals, after being discharged by yet another pedophile.
Let me make one point most clear here.
No, I am not talking about Abortion! I have my beliefs on this and am willing to share that with anyone strong enough to listen to me.
I'm talking about babies born into seriously horrific places.
Movie Quote: The Breakfast Club: Judd Nelson, his character abused with cigarette burns via his father, says, (and I will mess up this quote, but here goes: "You have to pass a test to get a drivers license, but they'll let any swinging dick become a father..."
These so innocent Babes created into peace and beauty, later to be tossed into so many filthy and foreboding elements after being discharged from clean and friendly environments of a hospital. From smiling Nurses/Aides , loving their job, greeting, cooing over their so fragile, tiny frames from feeding them to administering Light to thwart of jaundice. These Nurse/Angels giving them an incredible best start from sincere heart and dedicated belief of professionalism,
These Incredible men and women, Nurses/Aides and House Keeping personnel with their smiles/prauers and best wishes welcome a new child into OUR world to eventually send them off...
As they let go, at times their instincts wanting to pull child back into their safe-ness, they 'Do their Job' and release. Imagine their plight, being and pray for them as they need to the best we can offer up to support them.
AMERICA! FOR SAKE OF YOUR OWN CONSCIENCE, or for your belief in Jesus, find your balls, or tits as you are female and speak your mind!!!!!: So many children are slaughtered, sold in pedophile jungles both here and abroad each and every year.
My Brothers and Sisters in Jesus, may i ask you this? How many of these babes were ever Baptized? My Question to runs deeper and i believe it relevant. : Can a group of believers in Jesus do a baptism for those who never stood a chance for a baptism?
I sincerely believe we can find a way as I know this can be in my heart.
In Jesus name, I pray!!!!!
I will find a way to make this happen for them, so help me God!!!!
-Mark william Darus
Tuesday, July 28, 2015
May i Ask You to take A Moment and Pray, Send Hope to Lafayette Louisiana.
After a fairly odd night at work, spending some twenty minutes decompressing with Craig, talking about work and life in general after clocking out.
i Work in a machine shop. Tons and Tons of metal is crafted into axels, shafts and transmission parts. Raw material fed into machines by the amazing men and women i work with, getting spat out and put into steel bins, usually totaling anywhere between 1 to 2 tons in weight. These are moved about via Mitsubishi TowMotors about the shop. Well, the shop redid the floor and seem highly worried about scuff marks/scratches on the floor. I believe I am heading for a write-up as marks, scars and drag-marks happen on oily surfaces at the colossal speed of 1 to 2 miles an hour. I truly feel for and love my BOSS as he brings scratches and such discovered on day shift to my and others attention. I cannot imagine how he feels about wanting us to be gentler, softer and further careful and vigilant when setting TONS of weight to recently painted concrete flooring. He's a proud man, did time in our Army, and I think his mind is blowing chunks on this. He may be my BOSS, yet he has one as well.
CRaig and i usually talk to each other every night after work. We comment about sounds heard, occasional coyotes baying, frog sounds and hilarious PA messages from seriously over-worked men for a towmotor operator as they imitate one another. We laugh, share things, shake hands, enter our vehicles after saying "seeya later today, or Seeya in the PM" as those that work hours like us, there is no tomorrow except for weekends.
i get into my Trailblazer, fire up the straight 4.2 and click my radio to life and am greeted with-
"Police are not releasing the name of the 58 year old white male that killed 3 people while gunning down 7 more at a movie theatre in Lafayette Louisiana during the opening of the film Trainwreck. "
i was stopped hard by this news. Just two days ago I reread an old blog entry about the Colorado Movie shooting that the shooter is now on trial for.
i began crying as i thought about how those there must have seen this come down before their eyes. i thought about children that may have been there and what their minds, innocence shattering as bullet fire rang out and how scared they must have been.
Needing cigs, I stopped at the GetGo on my way home. i asked the register worker what she thought the shooting.
She hadn't heard of it, nor had the three people behind me. Quickly, The Three nailed their SmartPhones discovering it. i heard heaving gasps from them, a couple saying 'my god!"
"WHAT THE FUCK IS THIS WORLD COMING TO?" an Applebees smock clad waitress exclaimed.
"I need to call my wife," a tired looking black man in overalls shared.
"your total is 12 dollars and 30 cents,"
Swiping my debit card across a reader, i offered this: "pray for them if you have it within to do so."
A stranger put his hands on my shoulders as i turned around to exit. He was crying, saying, "Dear Lord Jesus, be with the ones in the hospital, their friends and children."
i looked into this mans eyes and felt his words/hearts desire to God.
my Savior, Jesus, thank you making me do what i do and see what occurs around me.
He is With us, Always
click link above for the song.
Father of all beautiful and wonderful things, i ask you to stretch your loving arms around the people of Lafayette Louisiana as they struggle, cry, hurt, and wake this morn feeling way different than they had to day before. Dear holder of my heart and soul, i pray you be with them as you have always stuck by my side never straddling a fence as I faltered before you . i kind of know you will, yet i ask you all the same. I cannot fully know nor imagine how big your heart and thoughts for us truly must be. Your love so great and vast, eclipsing the highest Earthland peaks while delving into depths far lower in the darkest, most secretive and protected parts of our hearts. Lord, Jesus, if you were a music studio (and in my heart of hearts, you are to so many. Inspiring them, fueling them, touching their minds causing fire to ignite within them, nailing hearts to share to the world.) your soundboard would have a billion plus sliders to balance. i beseech you both, my Jesus and his Dad, God: Have this city awaken in a few hours and see your glory and peaceful embrace hold them. They will be hurting in ways i sickly can imagine. This coming weekend, parents telling loving children that maybe going to a movie isn't a great idea right now, give these parents blessed alternatives being a picnic in the park, their kids and friends cooking the kitchen night, and.or whatever ideas you would grant them, if lost without your love, or simply blindsided today and hold you high.
my Loving and Guiding Force in my sinful heart, Jesus: Have others extend arms around to embrace so many so hurting across my lands this morning. God, shove some incredibly stubborn to place in their heart they can place a quivering hand to another s shoulder as they express: I'm sorry for your loss.
Lord, their minds must be rifling across so many things: Movies, Not Safe. Churches, ditto, forget Postal offices, Jobs, schools, gas stations, Malls, where is Safe Harbor?
My Heavenly Father, teach them easier than you did me in letting them know the only safe place is how we live each day while trying our hardest to try and stay by your side and not stray from you.
So grateful you gave yourself for us.
In Jesus name, i pray, Amen.
- MWD. words from me shared via permission given ALL of us to do so. What is your cost of faith? How would having faith hurt you? Just asking....
Be Blessed in your walk.
Monday, July 20, 2015
Drops in the Ocean....
The Physical Leader of, (the failing Nation of the United States of America, going through slow death-throws much like that of Rome when it fell centuries ago), my country tosses a contract with Iran to stop them from going Nuclear. Wowie!!! How awesome is that? Stock potential markets spiked, massive investment prospecting to be gained in Iran. Yeah, Buddy! Jump aboard the Lust Boat and get you portfolios ready!!!!
And look at us, those in the USA, mending fences with Cuba. Their tourist trade has climbed some 15% in the last 4 months. Granted, I thought my countries wish to Kill-the-Beard most archaic and asinine.
Part of the agreement with Iran says we, WE (USA tax dollars at work, yours and mine) will teach them how to defend against others....
Hmmmm, didn't we say we would do the same for the Ukraine? Soon after Olympics ended, did not Russia go after the Ukrianes borders? And what did we do? Sanctions prompting their head of Space Station relations to suggest that the USA build a huge trampoline to reach the international space station instead of hitching a ride with their crew.
Wow, really? I guess the stock/greed factor in my country isn't as great in the Ukraine as it is in Iran.
TELL ME HOW THIS DOES NOT SUCK!
I get it, really I do.
It's all good as long as our Iphones work.
A woman drives half way across the country for a job interview to which she is hired and given a start date at Her alma moter . She later gets pulled over and is arrested. She is, according to released documents, released the same day and found dead, hanging by slendor neck in a Texas jail cell.
Her family and friends say she would not commit suicide.
I know if were given a job in my hearts desire I would so break the law, get arrested and thus OFF myself immediately after being released. And better yet, off myself in the very same cell I was released from. Yeah, I can so see this.
Screw That Noise!
I hate to say there is vile and sick work in our OH-SO comfortable UNITED STATES of Amerika.
Wow, really, hold her, Sandra Blands death, horrifically untimely by my thoughts given me in you arms of positive thought and prayers.
Well, I can so say this with you all: When I got hired after a 4 months lack of employment I knew I WANTED TO GET PULLED OVER AND GET 'SUICIDED' !!!!
There is a filthy Hatred that fills our Earth.
I pray for Sandra Bland and her friends and family.
SUICIDE?!?! SORRY, NO CHANCE IN HELL!
I sincerely believe my United States of America is poised on the brink of revolution on so many fronts we now have about 18 republican candidates to hold in sway as they Mesmerize us with spells, glances and rhetoric. Yeah, brothers and sisters: Drink their Koolaide, damn your childrens futures for further education and damn them for their next twenty years with House Note on a place they will never own.
Take Sandra Bland into your heart, Jesus.
Hold her family and friends close as they dive for explanations,
Texas is a proud state....
Sandra did not End Her Life in my opinion.
Sandra was a victim of racism.
She was killed by fools.
Mark William Darus.
Thursday, July 2, 2015
Praise God From Who All Blessings Flow...
Mark William Darus (seriously, I'm but a typist, and in all honesty, not a very good one...
Play this redone Classic as you read this, if you'd be so kind.
Praise God From Who All Blessings Flow....
For some reason while at work tonight i began thinking about Brooklyn Memorial United Methodist church, the church of my youth. For some reason, i felt a sense of melancholy as mind drifted backward across many decades. My thoughts, other-directed, running in so many directions i nearly became overwhelmed by the sheer force pushing them and nearly placing my seriously battered Mitsubishi Towmotor into caressing a wall at 1 MPH. (yeah, 1, one, Uno, ) Granted, Kissing the wall behind the bank of pre-WWII Acme-GRidley's, going further into the Hydromat machine areas, such low-speed slidings occur on a regular basis. As long you don't hit a machine or CoWorker, it's all good in the Hood.
My mind began replaying songs I sang in BMUMC's Youth Choir, later, the Adult Choir, eventually culminating to a Sunrise Service that our Youth Fellowship did twice before the congregation, at their request. We created a Passion Play singing, with piano accompaniment from a highly gifted/talented man, using songs from both Godspell and Jesus Christ Superstar. Wow, was that really 38 years ago? I was 14 then,.. All bright-eyed and bushy tailed, energetic, enthusiastic, optimistic...
52 for a few more weeks. Oddly, i don't feel that old at all. i think i know why this is so.
Bare with me, gentle reader: kick your seat back, take a sip of wine, don't let your popcorn burn the inside of your microwave...
I have always been of the belief that we only Downward age, become truly OLD, tired and feeble in Mind and Soul, when nothing beautiful, unique, bizarre, captures the very sense of Awe in witnessing those. We were given, since our birth, a divine blessing, when the gift of sight, sound, smell and feeling was Brand New to us. Didn't we then suck everything up like Moses walking the desert plains finding a water source? And did not you grow with each event you took into your mind, memory, heart and soul?
So let me ask you this: At what point did you stop seeing beauty, hearing sincere laughter, relishing the smell of fresh baked bread with buttery top? When did you allow yourself to lose touch with the wonder of everyday enlightenment granted each and everyone of us while our eyes are open, ears always taking in even when asleep, nostrils catching air that our tongue give us taste?
i AM GUILTY OF THIS!! Christ knows I wandered decades ago and stupidly thrusting my ass into a Soul Eclipse that had me see nothing wonderful, amazing or precious even as my daughters were growing. I so then easily drank the Guyana Grape Koolaide and sucked in the media's desire to show nothing good, precious, pretty in this life. I ruled these streets for years, still loving Jesus, just somehow missing the connection as either trains, planes, ships or the fuckin' bus was missed by me.
"WE'RE HERE LIVE ON THE CORNER OF EAST 55TH AND EUCLID WHERE A SHOOTING JUST OCCURRED." The pretty blond on screen speaks as camera shows her smiling before all, hair swaying gently in a breeze from right to left, sometimes landing on the royal blue dress that flatters her figure.
"A carbomb detonated in Belfast today, killing 28 and injuring 50 others." a heavy accented man cries out...
"Watch out for Killer Bee's in your neighborhood!!! These bees, other called: Africanized bees are highly agressive and can be lethal!"
I'm sure you get my point,
So easily are we to swept away in bad currents flowings and become negative, yet we so eagerly, wantingly wish to share these down-thoughts with others. Perhaps hoping, desiring their DArkness to match us, meet us. Misery loves company, does it not? ((( SO DON'T YOU EVER LET ANOTHER BRING YOU DOWN!!!! )))
If you have a love of life, ANY passion beating in your chest and mind/soul, a crooked smile tossed at one slipping on icy pavement and their sustaining balance after several moments, for the walker- sheer panic nailing them and your tossing fist to heavens, undoubtedly nailing cars cieling while yelling "YEAH!" when he strolled toward car, not falling.
Standing in a shopping line at the Giant Eagle on Pearl Rd in Middleburg hts, , I was behind a woman in a beautiful floral-patterned dress. Her long, incredibly lovely brunette locks , coursing over well toned shoulders flowing down to shapely legs. . High cheeks, strong facial features, soon lost composure as she began firing enormously loud and extremely odoriferous sharings...
"V----RUMPH! VVVVVVVVV-RRRRRRRRRRU-----UMPH! " Sound immediately hitting ears and smell quickly nailing nostrils of all those in the 5, maybe 10 foot circumference from bottom-zero.
I watched her when this happened, her face not looking nearly so confident, secure. Her eyes darting from right to left as if trying to mate with mind to elsewhere make needed excuse to cover, and sorry to say this pun, cover her ass.
What did I do?
I was directly behind, well, her behind, when it fired things for an incredibly long time. Keep this in mind: I know so many sisters and brothers with IBS (irritable bowel syndrome). I've shopped, stopped and waited patiently with them for theirv cramps to subside, fade away and such. And why am I one of the only of Jesus's children to share this for others understanding?
Okay, what did you do, A-hole????
"I'm ----- sooooo ------- very-------sorry!!!" she spoke in wavering and lost tone, her blue eyes creasing into slits, tears welling up in them. Lips ends descending downward toward FrownVille.
So many in audience spoke.
"dang, Bitch! You smellz az bad az a SHEEE-Kah-GOOOO stockyard in highz Auuuuu-guZZZT!" a highly creative and quickly leaving man states to his woman. She quickly states: Fucckkaaaah, I be a nursing assistant! We smells shit every mother loving day! You needs to get a job, serious. Asshole!!!!"
An exquisitely well clad female in Michael Kors gear, sporting long, finely manicured nails on both hands and feet, opens her gaping, disgusting mouth-trap for all to hear: " Honey, ever hear of Depends?!?!? You should think about it. Damn! If I throw up, I am gonna spew toward you!"
Several witnessing laughed while others looked bewildered at this womans remarks.
Well, i did what i do: Unleash thoughts not mine, open my mouth and be what I like to be though others would call me an asshole. i did the me-thing, and just spoke out...
(to the lady saying the fart lady needs Depends: "C'mon, really? You think Depends stop the sound and smell? Are you an idiot in the highest order?" Stopped a moment, stared at her blank expression and went for the Killshot: (yeah, I said Killshot. I somehow thought I needed to go extreme with this woman, and somehow found the strength to do so. I went brash, filthy and disgusting on this.
"and may I ask you where your bodily functions might create inordinate events in your life?
Ever think about that? Guess not, so walk away, meet me in the parking to chat furthers, whatever..."
I locked eyes on the embarrassed woman with IBS and simply smiled. I said a sharing from memory with my youngest daughter every morning as I walked her down the stairs and every other step she would fart. I laughed and thanked this woman: "my youngest farted every other step each morn while going downstairs. Thanks for reminding me how precious that is!"
She managed a smile, nodded her head to me, and left...
Difficult is the path that makes you see, feel and want to share with others what you find amazing, sweet and just plain pretty.
Well, It is my sincere hope you can and do this with others. Give all those you encounter positive thoughts, inspirations, hope and the sharings of gifts given you. I don't care what god they have, doesn't matter in my book. With my JC, it matters not if nonbelievers believe in Him, HE BELIEVES IN THEM!!!!!!
-Mark William Darus
Thursday, June 25, 2015
Can I Play With Madness?
Mark William Darus.
part one written November, 2014. part two given me as moon dives into rising sun this morn today.
I started this blog with a direction of NonViolent Psychopathy in mind. In the last two and half years, it has run a gambit from that simple starting point to vast areas I never knew I'd find in my research. Yeah, mostly dark and bleak in their nature yet enlightening for those still capable of learning.
Can I Play With Madness?
One constant being a song by a band called Iron Maiden and their musical story: Can I play with Madness. (or as one of my daughters would sing it at a very young age: Can I play with Magnets? lol Gotta love how the innocent hear things!
This blog started on the heels of a local school shooting, that being in Chardon Ohio, going to areas of psychopathic politicians, corporate CEO's, Members of the Clergy, Dating Relationships and so on and so forth.
I find myself lost these days more often than not though...
We've gone from work place postal killing sprees, school killings, and random gang related drive-by killings to be-headings, Hatchet people going after cops to Ebola bouncing around and about.
My thought about Ebola: If the sick and stricken Americans with this can be brought back to the USA and be made well through treatment, how is it that we as a nation don't treat West Africa with the same money we would give any other country descimated by an Earthquake, Tsunami or other cataclysmic event?
I think most of us know the answer for this. No profit to be gained helping Africa. So what do we do? We send the 101st Airborne and 4000 National Guard troops over there. I don't like what I am about to write, but will write it nonetheless: My thoughts and prayers go to yet the further Lemmings we press into areas like we did in Vietnam. Our Male and Female soldiers, the sons and daughters our land, following orders given them.
I am lost finding a single area to write about as I am infuriated by what is going on. Help me out. What would you like me to write about? Thanks. I think this song/link works globally with the internet.
Wishing you the best,
-Mark William Darus
06252015 Authors Note: As I reread this, editing it along the way, I realized something: Playing with Madness, insanity and the depths of depression is as familiar and commonplace to me as one might find in tying a shoelace. It's just something you do and never question why you do it. I've studied psychology for over 40 years now and have never lost an interest in it. I started this back when, age 12, to perhaps gain a better understanding of myself, though I think the greatest side-effect of my studies gave me a way to help others suffering with minds, thoughts, and lives that hurt them in ways highly difficult to cope with. <granted, I didn't get that part until late teens and so forth.>
I was not without sin during this lifelong journey though. I used a lot of what I'd learned about human behavior to manipulate girlfriends, bosses and others for whatever reason I had at the time. Yep, doesn't speak highly for me, does it? How ugly is it to have an ability to place gentle, loving, caring people on a chessboard and move them around it for little more than our own amusement? Well, never wishing to mince words: THAT'S PRETTY FRIGGIN DISGUSTING, LOW AND NASTY!!!!
A word of PROFOUND thanks to Jesus and his POPS: Why did you not strike me down as I did what I did to others? I used knowledge from reading books, perception from watching others reactions in many Emergency Rooms, and finding the damaged females, and twisted things horrifically so to get, gain, something....? I cannot justify what I have done before your eyes, yet you let me live....
All I can speculate is this while looking back (trying to be humble during this writing and not blasphemy and presume the mind of God) : Jesus and his Pops had something in store for me as I went about my life then. I'm not suggesting they condoned, appreciated nor applauded what I did to others. I do, however, feel they loved me and gave me massive latitude while I strayed, toyed, messed with others to learn from their reactions.
All things began to change in me as I began to learn patience. This occurred in my thirties, a divorce being the stress factor leading to me nearly killing myself that first Christmas afterward. I had placed a bottle of sleeping pills I had purchased at a Discount Drug Mart on a shelf that cold sunny day December 1992. My daughters, safe at their mothers home for the weekend, out of sight, out of mind.
They, my girls, were away from me....
On fallen knees, having spoken my peace, begging forgiveness for my weakness from my Lord and saviour, yet unable to surrender then , I reached for the bottle of eternal slumber and stopped suddenly. My eyes, mind, heart and/or perhaps what was left of my soul caught something stopping me fast. I began bursting into tears, bringing fists and forearms firmly to floor, wanting to feel a sense of physical hurt to match my mental loathing of myself. I had caused so much damage to others, I caused one who loved me to walk away from... . I had placed the tablets of Self-Elimination in front of picture of my daughters, my eyes caught theirs in the photo, and with that, the worst and ugliest part of my life died forever....
I have to thank Sue <Winkie, back in the-day!> (I cannot find it in my heart to call her an EX. She did what she had to do, And I will always understand this. I was not good to be around then. I will always give her credit: She is the BEST, most gifted artist I have ever known and freely recommend her name to every place but French Bistros. ) for that photo. She suggested we take a free photo thing from somewhere of the girls. I believe that photo at divine drop of pill vessel caused me to take stock.
"Wow, how Spooky is dat chit, m'yan?" me asking how would Tony Montana (Scarface would say it, lolol.) We're talking spiritual happenings like AM talkshow radio stations like Coast to Coast AM show (1100 WTAM), George Noury callers share conversations with others that have mystic aliens place their trash on their front lawns (or is it those dang Government Snoopers) digging deeper into their brains? Another proclaiming "Sasquatch is relieving Rheumatoid Arthritis pain for all those that amble down to the corner of Pierce rd and Welsh, just catty-corner from the old Sinclair Fuel Station, and yeah, the old Di-nuh-sewer sing is still hanging on the post. He's a tad rusty nowadays, but he's still a-hanging thar! " To: "Hey, Jade Helm is taking, maneuvering around recently closed Walmart stores, converting them into either future interment camps or ammo dumps, bro! Ever see semi's, ya know, tractor trailers, man, with US DOT markings on their sides? Really? Dude, this ain't good for any of us...."
Spooked out, freaking, crying like the lunatic that I was at that moment, I gave up for the first time in my adult life.
Was embraced by Jesus.
Being both human of flesh and fragile in spirit, I would still often walk away....
Patience is a gift, is it not? Sure, soft spoken, encouraging parents tell us in our early years: " Be patient, Maribeth, Christmas is but a few weeks away and you will find what Santa brings you. Now go back to your homework, okay?" But look to yourself and ask this: When did you learn to be patient?
Well, I found I could help others versus fucking with them the all I had learned. This is not to suggest I didn't backslide many a time wanting a comfort zone periodically. God knows I did.
I think I was granted further living to teach others things they never thought about in their lives. Those aspects being with family, man-woman relationships, workplace environments to political/religious and how they could be used/abused by them and how to avoid such things.
Looking at this blog with Newer Eyes now, knowing why I wrote what I did as I will always stand by the words i placed here. Apparently\, I am called to continual do so here...
God's Not Dead, and oddly, Neither is this Blog. I wish I could say I am sorry, yet I cannot do so. Thru this dark, ugly place I created, I, given words from otherness, reached others far and wide and still do. I CANNOT, WILL NOT, turn my back on you that still read here!
Hugs and blessings to you all,
Mark William Darus. 06252015
Friday, June 12, 2015
To Everything, Turn, Turn, Turn...
Mark William Darus.
Yeah, the title for this entry I stole from The Byrds.
Indulge me, if so kind, and hit the link and listen as you read my words.
The Byrds. Turn...
How does one end something they created and freely tossed to our Blue Marble?
A place for all to read, learn and hopefully grow as lights might go off in their heads, thinking: 'Damn, now I get it!' and/or 'Wow, how could I have been so blind?' Perhaps: 'Is that how they got a promotion over me?' and many other thoughts some might be hit with.
It was my intention to show all readers the highly dark and ugly places many of us have either fallen into or created in others and how these events occur in our lives. To show this simple truth: You are Not Alone. I think all of us have either been used by others, have used others for personal gain, or both over time.
We're both Predator and Prey to one another, are we not? More often than not, both exist in each and every one of us on a daily basis at any given moment.
You disagree? No problem, though I ask you consider this before sending me harsh emails: You feel like you're being used by your boyfriend/girlfriend/coworker/ a boss that steals your ideas to elevate their position, whatever. For reasons you hold within your heart of hearts sacred, maybe fearing what might happen if you talked about them to another, most likely held from your childhood experiences of physical, sexual or emotional abuse. You, alone, yet being anothers prey, go out and about on your time away from those controlling. You are shopping, getting gas, having nails painted to please the "him" / getting a haircut to please the 'Her', while your mind is spinning of thoughts never ending of personal failures in you taking an hour from a week for yourself. As you spending this hour for yourself, relishing it, loving it, cherishing it, something goes south of expectation, making your brain cross mental terminator. You so quickly turn from hunted to hunter at an others small misdoing ,one easily corrected, yet still you go all vocal Isis on them. Belittling them with harsh words, your eyes showing fiery pupils of daggers, the twist of your face displaying your enjoyment for doing to others, hurting others, as you have let yourself fall into a world of bad decisions. While they apologize, attempt to correct things, struggle at minimum wage to make things right with you, Not Enough for you, is it? You always have to point out how their hair is uneven, a nose piercing sets not quite right, the tat on your arm is misspelled, you're too fat to please any man, honey, forget wearing pink and know vibrators will be your only mate....
Yeah, I have heard all those above in check out lines across many venues. I have seen shoppers go so rotten as to say after the cashier told them the total cost for third time was greeted with from a so caught by cell shopper snaps: "damnit, Beyatch! What does I neee- DANG! NOT YOU, sorry hon, I am just asking dis bitch runnin my card to STOP INTERUPTION ME NOW!!!"
I thank my HIGH-FIVING GOD, the pappy of Jesus for giving me an avenue to wander, learn, struggle with a life without things most take for granted. You said when I would just surrender to you, I would find what made me different. Well, I found out at your will, sorry my sisters didn't like this.
Yet, I am struggling now. I believe this mental creation given at my hands from othernous, be it God as he gives me the Black and White to write with or Jesus that has me share beauty and redemption for all to experience safe harbour with.
I would like to give thanks to those that visited Psychopathy: Another Life. My Friends and readers, 48000 strong over it's 3 year life. I humbly thank the over 88 countries, that read my ramblings, shreddings, carings, You took time, read my shotguns blasting of thoughts,,, How can not I say you are the best your country has to give me. IN ALL HONESTY, I LOVE YOU ALL, HUG YOU ALL. WHERE HAVE WE NOT GONE TO FILTHY DISGUSTING AREAS, finding pennies on a platform to feed us..
My Dearest God! your accidental baptisms Hits my left arm cooling it, sweet. So many, annoyed, rain drops falll.
again, how does one end something..... How do we slay a comfort zone for better benefit ??
Thanks for your sharings. support, belief in something greater tHAN YOURSELF.... Freely taking goosebumps on forearms, the tender strokes across the back neck, , WE'RE THE DREAM WARRPRW
Christ, Jesus, your father lead me on this path of a blog. I must end it now and I find myself crying, hurting and sobbing surrendering further to your will for me to grant avenues to share with others. My father, I will to try to make it worthy of you.
Before closing this, I would like to thank the people of these many lands I have met in the physical world, though they have visited and touched my life: your reading my words kept me alive.
Thanks to the people of these proud lands that took the time to read me: Czech Republic, China, Korea, France, UK, Russia, Brazil, Spain, Mexico, South Africa, Malta, Ukraine, Canada, Sweden, Iceland, Germany, Belgium, Afghanistan, Serbia, Portugal, Thailand, Kenya, Norway, Syria, Greenland, Latvia, Costa Rica, Finland, Belize, Rwanda, Greece, Nepal, Australia, Italy, Hungary, Libya, Japan, Taiwan, Lebanon, Trinidad and Tobago, Slovakia, Denmark, Cambodia, Bangladesh, Fiji, Jordan, Laos, New Zealand, Israel, Croatia, Saint Helena, Honduras, Romania, Taiwan, Liberia, Kyrgyzstan, Cape Verde, Barbados, and my friends in what’s left in the once proud UNITED STATES OF AMERICA.
I wish to welcome you down another road. Know I am merely a typist....
A place filled with potholes and nastiness, yet, a gentle spot to lay your head down, perhaps not feeling so nuts when something catches you off guard in a good way.
A Long Down a Short Pier, And Where It Led me....
Hope to see you there!
I now end this blog, thanking so many of you in my journey down the road....
I could not have reached this place without all of you!!!!
From my now ever growing heart, so much like the Grinch a mere three years ago, sizes too small, learning to walk again via OtherNous, figuring things out about myself, limping, crawling, finding avenues of expression that might mate to others minds and grant them understanding and an element of peace.
I wish for each and everyone of us to find a place in gentle heart of understanding for all of us that share a precious gem, this being our Blue Marble.
Hugs to EACH AND EVERY FREAKING ONE OF YOU!!!!! YOU KEPT ALIVE BY YOUR VIEWING THIS, REPEATED READERSHIP, EMAILS AND SUCH!!!!! AS MY LIFE TOOK SO MUCH AWAY FROM ME, JESUS AND YOUR FELLOWSHIP ACROSS A GLOBE, MADE ME REALIZE WHAT IS TRULY IMPORTANT. ALL OTHERS ARE VASTLY MORE IMPORTANT THAN OURSELVES....
WE ALL GOT STADIUM LOVE!
Kick your weekend into gear and share something beautiful and righteous for a change instead of telling how you got buggered off by another.
END OF LINE.....
MaY YoUr LiFe Be BlEsSed!
MARK WILLIAM DARUS 06122015