CAN I PLAY WITH MADNESS???
Wowza! I started this blog nearly ten years ago and am amazed people still read it across our blue marble to this day!
Over 90 Countries, 80K people.
I cannot both express my gratitude for their reading my words and sadness/apologies for my lack of writing the last few years.
Well, it's my intentions to kick it up this year as EVERYTHING seems to going to Hell on the heels of Covid, Russia invading the Ukraine and the cost of food steadily rising....
Clearly, I have a lot of work, research and editing to do down the road. And I suck at editing my own work...
Sorry for my lapse....
I ask myself again: 'Mark/FLYINGSCOOTER, do we really want to go here again??? Do you want to delve into writing and play with the madness of trying to find meaning in areas where there is little to none?'
BEEN TOO LONG. DAMN RIGHT I AM GOING TO.
Reasons why I feel ready to do so...
Well, I think being back at work at Conn-Selmer for several months after being laid off for 16 months >being back working for 4 months< has taught me how to interact with others once again and hopefully making those around laugh again. For Christ's sake, the lockdown shit made me turn into an introvert! Damn scary place for me to be since I was 16 years old. Virtual paranoia could have taken place, and am grateful it didn't.
>>>For fucks sake, I spent so many months of my life during the 'shutdown Covid bullshit' where my only human interactions were based at gas stations (HUGE THANKS TO THE PEOPLE AT SPEEDWAY Vine and Lakeshore while getting Smokes, Coffee and IPA's) and Save-A-Lot Vine st.) You all made a massive influence on my 20 minutes out of the house as all else was closed.
I sincerely have to thank Cliff S, Pennie C and Ed K for talking on the phone and sharing with me during our Submarine Existence while on lay-off, shutdown/lockdown/isolated. If I hadn't had you to talk to day to day, I would have gone insane.
I also need to thank my wife Gretchen. While I was off work, long before her job kicked her to curb, she saw me do nothing except household chores/collecting unemployment/playing computer games and flying sim planes. The first few weeks I shared with her how I was going Slightly Mad as I had no face-to-face interactions as I had at work and seriously missed being alive amongst others/having an audience and such/feedback. I was truly going INSANE and would have gone if not for the above mentioned people. Only when she got laid off did she fully understand what living in dark water means... One week into her lay-off she asked me as we were sitting in out computer room; "How do you handle this, Mark?" I simply answered, I have friends i talk to on phone and at gas stations....
I suggested she hear this song,....
Also this song ran with me off and on during the last ten years... Love the words and music... "Give me the Strength to hold my up and spit in their face..."
Been a long time since I played with the madness of writing the truth as I find and express it...
Sidenote: I feel younger as I type this. Must be a fire burning somewhere inside me....
Sorry for my absence.
Thank you for your patience.
-Mark/FLYINGSCOOTER
