Wednesday, April 4, 2012

Wishing to be Eaten: THE DOOR.

     The Door: Wishing to be eaten.

 

     What makes an easy prey for those that are Psychopathic? The hunted ask and more often than not, seek those that would devour them. They do this to gain some sense of worth with the aspect that they are so willing to sacrifice themselves for the sake of being noticed, regardless of how shallow it appears to others.
       They wish to open a door for acceptance by ‘the one’ that would complete them. They open this door, like the blinders of a thoroughbred, only seeing straight ahead and never looking to the sides. Those side views, so important when taking in a complete picture, they block with an almost reckless abandon. They wish for someone, anyone, to just walk through the door and see them as they wish to looked at.

     This door they created.

     This door they never should have opened with eyes blinded to all aspects.

    The Door.

     Be it some lonely person with hungry eyes, seeking acceptance, feeling so alone and isolated from love. Their friends have these ‘great relationships” that they so carelessly flaunt amongst themselves, to further perpetuate a feeling of loneliness and isolation to the one that ‘needs and wants’. The

    These are the prey of the nonviolent Psychopath. The needy, the sad, and those with little to no self esteem.

    They get up every dull morning with no warm body next to them. They prepare themselves for yet another day; showering, doing their hair and applying make up.

   Looking into the mirror, staring at themselves, doing a critique, perhaps thinking: ‘am I too fat, too stress worn, look at my crows feet. Who’d want me? I can barely tolerate looking at myself and all my




obvious flaws. My cellulite, massive thighs, flabby arms, triple chin. My god, look at my stomach! No matter how much I work out, my gut never shrinks. I am ugly.”

    They put on their clothes and head out into their world.

    They smile at the worker in the coffee shop, exchange words regarding things like the weather, stock market, the price of gas. Most friendly and inviting, just waiting for someone to engage them to further discuss current events, they open themselves. They toss up air-balls in the hopes that they are caught by heterosexuals or homosexuals alike depending on their desires.

    They head to work and another day like so many before. When they arrive at work, coworkers ask them how their night was, or worse, how their weekend was. Sometimes, so into the fantasy of romantic novels they use for a human replacement, they answer the questions; it was great! I met this guy/girl that was/is amazing! So nice, they took me out to eat. We went for a walk on the beach and shared a sunset where we kissed.

    After several weeks of living this lie, perhaps to save face with coworkers, ashamed of themselves for not having ‘the one’, they may add: I was so surprised! I was taken on a weekend trip to (wherever). And, well, we made love. It was great! This may just be ‘the one’.

    After work, they head home to maybe a dog or cat. They may read a book or cruise the Internet: checking out the dating personals with the hopes they may have responded to.

    They may talk to neighbors briefly, whom are usually married and seemingly happy with their lives. Sometimes sharing: you guys have no idea how lucky you are to have found each other.

    Perhaps having a drink or two with them, they always try to raise the hopes of this desperate person saying: You’ll find that perfect person someday. It took us forever to find each other and wow, what duds we met along the way.

   The neighbors usually finish with eyes meeting each other and sharing a kiss. Without knowing, their innocent exchange comes across to this lonely person as almost stating: I’ve got someone, why can’t you?

    Going back into their home, maybe hugging their dog, stroking their cat, they make their dinner. Maybe they listen to a favorite CD, watch a movie, they eat as they have for how many months with one single constant: They are alone now. And how they hate this.

    They finally go to bed. Masturbation, fantasizing of ’the one’ not with them.

    Wanting, hungering, desiring with all their heart and soul to be noticed and wanted. By the one they think will never leave them, accept them and all their flaws. They could love, cherish and take care and expect the same.

     It is with this, they so freely open ‘The Door’ with a complete blindness they no longer wish to find a truthful relationship.

    A predator will find them in due time.

   They have opened The Door

Sunday, April 1, 2012

Reader Comments: The Good, Bad and Truly Ugly

General comments: The Good, Bad and The Fucking Ugly…

And/or: We the People.

 

Over the last two weeks I’ve received quite a few emails with comments concerning my Blog. These comments, general in subject matter, span a fairly large range of emotions and thoughts. Some quite fiery, some incredibly violent and some just down right depressing.

Some spilt their hearts out while others tossed a nice Word Salad for us to take a bite out of. A few the need to throw religion in it; many did this in a highly unexpected fashion.

More than a few hate my BLOG and had no problems expressing their contempt and loathing completely and whole heartedly. Some were just downright rude (to which I have no problem with this whatsoever. You cannot hurt me, nor can you stop me in my pursuit for further knowledge on the subject of nonviolent Psychopaths.)

I will stand by what I write, regardless of its subject matter, and I really don’t give a shit if you don’t like it.




Admin Note: The comments you are about to read were sent to my email addy. I copied them here and put the email date they were sent. If you follow My BLOG, note those dates versus the corresponding subject dates. On some I put in AN’s <Admin notes with replies>

Enough of my words…

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03/28/2012



WTF! Your glorifying these assholes! They should all be hurded together and killed! Monsters, every last one of them. Did it ever occur to you that maybe you should warnings to people? Did it ever occur to you that you should tell people what to watch for?

I guess not, pissbrain. Post more victum stories. Maybe then people will learn something.

-Adam. -Billings Montana

<AN: What was my blog title on march 22nd? Was it not: The Warnings? Hurded? You must’ve meant herded, right? 4% of the population of the USA which accounts for just over 12,750,000 people. You must be going after Hitler’s record. Tell me you’re not a psychopath with a thought like that.>

 

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A friend I work with found your blog and showed it to me. I am currently a psych student at UCLA and find your writing and the writers that have contributed to be most enlightening. Your blog is the stuff that textbooks just don’t cover. This blog has helped me get into the thought processes from both sides. They do not teach this material in college. I think this will help be get a better understanding in the world of abnormal psych.

Abigail’s and the Prey’s stories are tremendous in their contents. A lot going on there.

Thanks and keep up the good work!

Mary, UCLA

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Katie’s Prayer gave me an insight I couldn’t have thought possible in the aftermath of tragedy. Forgiveness through the strength and beliefs in a higher power. You ROCK, Katie!

Carrie, not sure exactly if you learned your lesson, but I do believe you have good intentions.

About Deadbeat Parents: published 03/25/2012.

Outstanding viewpoint. I never looked at it that way. My dad left me when I was very young, about 5 years old. I never saw him again and wasted many years crying. I seldom let anyone close to me for fear they would leave me and hurt me.

Mr. Darus, you gave a new twist to the term Deadbeat Parents. You are so right, it only publicly matters when it comes to money, and dare I say, how it stresses the Welfare systems.



About The Warnings: published 03/22/2012.

Sound words and well written. I love the way it begins to complete Psychopathic Relationships I: 03/16/2012. Are you using an outline or are you doing this organic? I sense organic, but it doesn’t truly matter. Without saying so, you are giving the reader guidelines to follow and watch for.



As far as Abigail’s and Catherine’s stories are concerned, they also give lessons to be learned about manippulation. They sound as if they are proud of what and how they did what they did. Psychopaths must be that way for them to be psychopaths… yeah, that sounded dumb…

Mr Mark, love what you do and how you put it. No where do you say if you’re psychiatrist or chologist, but I don’t think you are. If you were, you would not post both sides.

Thank you,

Liz, Collins Iowa

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Emilyfromsacreloscincinatburg

<AN. The above is Word Salad. This is most common with both Dementia and Schizophrenia. <<<scratching head>>> wonder how they could even read, much less respond to my Blog?>




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Walden University. Student

Nice stuff here. Aspects seldom hit on with a unique perspective. Not sure what theory you are trying to prove but I have little doubt you will prove it. You do this without overtly trying, which gives you much credit.

Stay objective in your pursuits, and you have done so.

You give an almost equal balance on the teeter-totter of the mind: the Playground of the darkest recesses of humanity. I will keep watching your blog.

Diane Murphy-***** Walden

 

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Priests! The fuckin’ priests prey on us. A priets got my little brother in the ass. He fucked my baby brother, gave him shit, lured him in with the promise of being an alter boy. My borhter was 9 years old, man! And the church shot this prick to some country where I couldn’t find him. Go figure, when he got there, they couldn’t find him. Oh, I’ll find him…

Our parents on no better. All bad things happen for a reason ******, it’s just gods will.

GODS WILL? IS IT GODS WILL THAT SOME PSYCHOPATH PRIEST FUCKS MY BROTHER! IF THAT’S GODS WILL, THEN FUCK GOD!

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         Your site is an abomination to God's laws! Everyone that posts or comments will meet God's wrath and bathe in a sea of eternal fire!
Anonymous

    

       <AN: Uh, then why did you send a comment to me? Care for a swim in the hot tub you mentioned?





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Being a CEO at a large American company (cough-cough) that has more plants in Mexico than in the US, I can say that being a psychopath has done nothing but bring great things to my family. I single handedly wasted about 10,000 jobs in a country that believes more in popular athletes and stocks than it does themselves. I so love this country and its guidable and so easily tricked people that so meet me and mine halfway. I’ve convinced people to narc on others for mediocre Lakers tickets. Putz.

I signed pieces of paper as casually as one would eat a bologna sandwich, killing thousands of families futures with a pen stroke. I did it with a smile on my face, pats on the back from chairmen, and got bonus’ in the millions. I so went public and said we had no choice. Good of the company and all.

Within two months of closing US plants, we announced plant openings in Mexico, thus making the stock rise.

MWD, in your Beginnings part, you said something to affect of ‘thought just as lethal, the nonviolent psychopath.’ You are so right and clear. The nonviolent psychopath is far worse. Why go with a gun and shoot up a school when you can wipe out a series school systems with a single signature? And get a multi million dollar bonus for it. You have to love capitalism. Where the guilty become richer and all the commoners think about is Pro Sports teams.

You are so right: They do meet us, usually more than halfway.

Stephen (and you cannot trace this email addy)

Ps. I admire your spirit and enthusiasm! The Captains of Industry remark couldn’t have been said better. If you feel like taking flight, making the big bucks, call me. I have made your blog required reading with my execs.

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Sex. It’s all about sex and what men like. All the mens stoires here make me sick. They go after women like me, fuck them and leave them. How can you publish such shit? Those flaunting assholes deserve to have their balls cut off.

Betsy, Cleveland Tennessee

 

<AN. What male predator stories are you talking about? I have not put them on here yet? Are you psychic? We have Abigail’s and Catherine’s stories so far. Keep the faith though. Give me a chance to post those stories and then write.>

 

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Back to the now.



This is a sampling of the comments I have received. As I went over these, I had to play the music linked below. I sorted them out for this first part of the comments part. This great Jerry Goldsmith music seemed most fitting. Comforting in an eerie way as I went from comment to comment, taking in their thoughts and emotions, reading a paragraph, closing my eyes and seeing what they felt through their words.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=xreXeugQjdw

What more can I say?

Next Chapter: Psychopathic Relationships Part II. I can make you do anything I want.

Wednesday, March 28, 2012

The Prey: part I. Real and the Raw.

The Prey: The Real and Raw. Part I.



These are the stories of The Prey. The victims stories, in their own words, unedited (except for names and locations that take part in their stories). The real and raw. These stories came to me via emails, and with their permissions and requests to post them, I have done so objectively.

Is one persons story better than another’s? Not in my opinion. I believe these stories came from the truths of their authors, written in their own forms and styles.

These are the stories of the scarred, sliced, mentally ruined, the learned and the vengeful. They will never look at love the same way again, and for that, most seemed grateful. These stories will be posted in several parts as I can only do so much with the time I have.

To date: I have received well over 200 emails from The Prey. Over time, I wish to post all of them. Those authors out there took the time to write them and share aspects of their lives with me, I cannot thank them enough. It is their wish to have them read by those that visit the BLOG.

I give them credit for coming forth and sharing the worst parts of their lives. Their hopes, that others may learn from their mistakes from either quick love and total lust.

I so humbly am thankful, to you, The Prey!


a good link, given to me by Suzanne from Dutch Harbour AK.
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=zs35CBGOxbc
play this link as you read. Thanks for proofing this, Suzanne.


-Mark William Darus

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Patrick’s Story.

I believed in you, you fucking cunt.



So you came into my life, like fresh air in a moldy basement. I was so easily willing to believe anything you would say to me. So beguiled by your smile, the sway of your hips, the way your long dark hair cascaded over your shoulders covering your breasts. Never once did I meet your eyes, and for that I damn myself.

Maybe I would’ve seen what my friends and family did as they told me to bolt away from you. But I was trapped by your words, your confidence, your beauty. Your willingness to bed me. To take me into your mouth and to have me sucked dry.

I lost myself with you. I screwed my family over to be by your side. I fucked over my friends to be with you.. I lost my kids, my life my soul. The cunt that is you and my lack of control. Guess I met you halfway

I gave you most of my life’s savings for a body I should’ve spent 20 bucks on for a crackwhore.

Looking back, after years of therapy, I met you halfway. You preyed on me and I gave myself to you. I must face myself and the things I did.

To think I put a bullet in my head to end myself. For you?

I survived as sometimes god favors the stupid.

I hope you rot in hell.

-Patrick

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Alyona’s story. (Ukraine)

I am so worthless. I need you back again.

I would have given anything for you. Do you know that?

I spilled my soul to you, told you my deepest desires. My dreams. I gave you all that I had.

You sucked me in with your eyes, never leaving mine. Your kiss, so soft and passionate, yet fiery that I felt you suck my face into yours.

I so freely gave you my pussy and took you into me. Letting you blast into me.

A thousand douches later, I still feel you there. Your warmth, your wet, you. I so long to be with you again if for no other reason to feel desired again.

I’d rather have your illusion than the truth of my being fat and unwanted by most…



Alyona

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David’s Theme: The Fix.

You came into my life like a freight train, strong and unyielding. You so seemed on the same track as I, and we quickly grew on each other like vines wrapping around a tree. After a very short time I could not imagine a sunrise or sunset without you by my side. I so remember your dark hair and clear, bright blue eyes and a body to die for. I felt so good around you as you read my every thought. When I stumbled for words, you could always tell me what I couldn’t seem to put into words, completing me.

… a body to die for…

A body to kill for.

In no time at all I so freely blew off all my friends, family and work. So scared was I to lose your love that I gave myself to you. Wanting you as a junkie needs a ‘fix’, and like a junkie, needing the ‘fix’ more and more all the time. You completed me to the point that my mind was in yours. A mind-meld of the damned.

Sex with you was more than sex itself. You took it to levels I’d never known could possibly be. Eyes and bodies locked, fixed on each others, moving to rhythms only you and I could hear.

In public places, mens heads would turn to see you. It was as if they could sense a woman so totally different than anything they’d known. I always caught their looks or nods which in my mind said this: You lucky son of a bitch. You took beauty and grace and walked with such confidence, who wouldn’t be jealous of me being by your side?

I cosigned on a car for you, as your credit had been destroyed by past boyfriends that used you. So quietly you asked me not to do this, but I did it anyway. My parents had raised me to help those we love. They taught me to do the right things and to help without being asked.

I opened credit card accounts with you. I paid your past utility bills.

Then we ran into your ex-boyfriend at *** **** **** bar and grill.

He came at you with such anger. He screamed and yelled, calling every name in the book.

I stepped between you and him and he called me a dumbfuck.

I told him to stop bothering you and he said what are you going to do about it?

He shoved me to side.

Rage, fire engine red, filled me with insanity.

I picked up a chair and brought in down on his head. I had cracked his skull wide open. The police arrested me soon after.

You were gone.

Witnesses said I was assaulted first. The police said I used excessive force and I spent a weekend in jail til my family bailed me.

When the trial came, I was sentenced to 1 year probation and biweekly counseling sessions.

Through those sessions I found out that I had become a tasty snack for a hungry lion. I had been toyed with, tasted tested and finally eaten.

My counseling went on for just over two years.

I’m still paying off a car I’ll never drive and paying credit cards I never used.

I also have a Police record that will haunt me.

I learned from this and it cost me more than I ever knew possible.

I will never make the same mistake again.

<this was written for a project my counselor gave me to do. She told me that sometimes we only learn when we take the time and put things into the written word. And read it: over and over and over again. Thank you, Marylyn ******* LISW>



Thanks, Mark. Your blog has given me a chance to maybe do something beyond myself. It is my sincere hope that people learn from this. Even with my background, I do not hate women. I am, however, a hell of lot more cautious with all beginnings and middles.

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Now Master: Fuck men!

If I were to see you again, I would so willingly drop to my knees , unzip your fly, and take you in my mouth. You would make the noises I so remember well. You’d go into that place I had taken you many times in our brief past, that stupid, near cumming expression on your face.

And I would cut your Achilles tendons with the blade I have named after you.

You’d flop around on the floor like a soon dead fish, and I would take slices on you, out of you. A cut to that back of the head, the inner thigh, wherever you gave me the chance to do so.

You would suffer so. I would laugh harder with each cry and look of pain from you. I will see you to it that yours arms could not lash out at me with a solid shot to the spine. You will be motionless at that point, but quite alive. Though paralyzed, you may not feel any longer, but you will see what you have made me.

Ever heard of Phantom Pain, asshole? We’ll find out, you and I, if there really is such a thing. I so hope there is, and you being its sole benefactor.

Whiter and whiter you grow as your flesh loses the color of the living. Gasp after gasp as you get closer to dying. Oh, how your eyes would look so intense, so angry and so frightened.

I would then remove your pants and cut your balls off. If given the chance before you go the hell, I would feed them to you.

The hunted becomes the hunter. If I have any air in me at all, I will see to it you never maim another women like you did me.

Who’s the Master now, fucker? Who’s the Master?!!!!

-Now Master.

I will never trust another man again.

<<<<Thanks for giving me the chance to vent, Man. Your blog and the internet keep me well hidden. More importantly, waiting for my chance with him.>>>>





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Katie’s Prayer:

Oh Lord, you have given me life after devastation. You repaired me, made me whole again after falling into crack and heroin. You pulled me from the hell of whoring myself out to please the one who ate me. He had me turn my back against you, sweet Jesus. I did all I could to please him and totally forgot about my savior who had only given me love and peace. I did this for a false love, For the lust of the flesh. To the Devil I gave myself and I did burn.

You doused me with your forgiving rain eternal. Baptized me with the love that is you. Loving me unconditionally, closing your gentle arms around me. Comfort forever.

Forgive us our trespasses and those that trespassed against us.

Amen.

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Eddies Comatose Dream………..

In the night, when I slept I dreamt of you. The dreams were the same every night, us meeting on a foggy night. You wore a slinky blue dress with nothing under it. Nipples standing out like the Goosebumps they gave me. The moon rode high as did my dick. That blond hair I’d run my fingers through every fucking nite. I’d give you money, pay your bills, give you job leads. The moon shone so bright.

All you asked of me was my time and attention. Such a small price to pay.

This dream happened every night for months.

When I woke up in an ER after an accidental overdose of acid, my family looking scared shitless at me.

I told them with more detail than I have written here about my beautiful dream.

Would you believe they tried telling me it was no dream? That I left them and my friends in the dust to go after such a deader? I had to laugh at them. I could never do such a stupid thing. I am not a stupid fucking idiot. I could never fall for such a bullshit artist that was her.

Sorry, not me.

Eddie, Wilmington NC.

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Stephanie the Donut Bitch:

All I can says is this. Yous left me’s wit da twinz 2 weekes afta they was borns. Yous blows south and lefts us north, nigga! Jesus helps me’s wit dem nows. I hopes god gives yous nazt aids, fucka! Hopes yur balls flls off.

Sissta’s donts youns fall 4 da playyas.

Stephanie the Donut Bitch of NYC

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Carrie (wild eyed and dumb)

You had such a nice car. You had money. You bought me things. Gave flowers and Whitman’s chocolates for no reason. You helped me when you could. You knew my situation after a recent divorce was not as good as yours.

You did this shit for about a month and by that time, you had me suckered lock, stock and barrel.

Then you came on to hard times, a plant closing that got a lot of attention in the news. I let you move in with me as I felt a strong love for you. You loved my body like no man ever did. You made me feel like Prom Queen every night.

When money got tight, and was a snag with your unemployment, you gave me a great idea. ‘Put that body to good use, baby. Be a dancer and the messed up drunks will give you all kinds of money just by shaking what you got. It’s not like they’re gonna touch you or anything. Bouncers will get them real quick if they do. Not like you’d be a whore or anything.

Never once did I think about my two daughters and what may happen when I ran into these ‘messed up drunks’ in a shopping mall. How fucked up is that?

And I gave you all my tip money to hold for me as you knew I had a problem with saving money. You even opened a savings account to hold it ‘for us’.

I was getting about 200 a night dancing. I still paid my bills with my real job and fed you throughout your hard times. You’d ask me for a twenty and hours later you’d suggest taking the kids for ice cream at ***** ****’s. You even paid for it.

How dumb was I? Not like I wasn’t educated as I had a college degree in teaching Art. When the school systems started crashing everywhere, I couldn’t get a position in teaching so I took a job an ******** ********* card shop at the mall. Honest living.

After six months you told me you could no longer handle the kids. You left me a letter while I was away at work. I was so upset by your leaving that I didn’t even think of the obvious. That is, until one of the bouncers said: “look at the Brightside, Carrie! Look at the money you’ve made in the last six months!”

Then it hit me.

I so wanted to die at that point. I began to cry. I cried for my daughters, I cried for my stupidity. I cried and could not stop.

Being educated, I went to the police and reported him. They basically told me that because I gave him the cash and he had put it in his account there really wasn’t much they could do. Sure, they could report him to the IRS, but chances were he was well below the radar. One rookie prick even quipped, what’s it like having a pimp? I slapped him across the face for his comment and his senior partner apologized to me and hauled his ass away.

I got so used and I made it happen.

Think about this: 200 a night, times four nights a week for six months! Just over twenty grand right into his pocket. That was how he shower the ones he chose with forget-me-not gifts and such things that made him look like he really had money.

I learned from this,

I danced 5 nights a week for two years after that. Made a ton of money and made a good life for my daughters and me.

This ended when I ran into a regular at the mall and he hit on me. In front of my kids he told me about the way I moved on the floor drove him nuts…

Learn from this. If I being a grad could fall for such bullshit, anyone could.

Carrie. Enid Oklahoma

{thanks, MWD. If felt good putting it to you. Post away, brother. I found your blog when I visited some online discount pharmaceutical company. Funny how we meet in the realm of the faceless, and sometimes, not thoughtless.)

 

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NOTE from Mark:



This is merely the beginning of a long journey into the lives of those, that with love, hopes and good intentions, strolled into the beams of a slow moving train. Like deer, they were both hypnotized and captured by something so strong and bright that they felt compelled to venture toward it.

The more of these stories I read I am further propelled to continue into this dark realm of human

relationships. The area where so many forget themselves, all those around them, and develop such pin-sized tunnel vision where all they can see is the beguiling, charming and energetic Predator they met halfway.

Sure, there must be some sick fascination on my part to delve into such an area of human anguish and exploitation. Perhaps there is; those thoughts and ideas I leave to you, dear reader. Do not be afraid to approach me with them though. If it is one thing I can accept and respect, it is straight forward questions regardless of how off-base you may catch me. I will answer your questions with I believe to be the truth as I know it.

As you course your way through the muddy, murky landscapes of the minds of others, keep this single truth known: With psychology, there are no FACTS. Psychology, though grounded in the scientific method, carries with it no absolutes. What grounded facts are there that pertain to every aspect of the human condition and can be proven time and time again? None that I am aware of nor have read about.

Frankly, I love psychology. People encountered are pathways to greater learning and growth. Like precious sea shells, people, no two are the same.

There is nothing more complex than that of the human mind. People, though seemingly very predictable, can quite often exhibit actions that go beyond what their best friends would have believed possible. We’ve all had people in our lives that ‘threw us for a lurch’ with some said thought or movement making us wonder: Do I really know them at all?

There are some that work/study in chemistry, computer science or even medicine that can deal with the complete facts and precision of a mathematician. Cut here and remove the cancerous growth, this chemical mixed with just 2 ml’s per quarter squared will make this reaction, or perhaps a more base level approach, put the flathead screw driving into the ignition and this car is mine.

Psychology does not work in the same places as traditional sciences. To put it simply, a car hit’s a brick wall at seventy miles an hour. An exact same model and year vehicle hit’s the same wall at the same rate of speed and velocity. High speed cameras record the same event that almost always mirror one another with complete repetition.

Physical science versus the science of the mind: no comparison. We might as well try to find similarities between the Columbine killers and the Twin Towers blow ups as they’d compare to the bombings of Hiroshima and Nagasaki, not to mention Dresden and Shermans scorched earth policy of the south. History dispends solely on who wins and under what circumstances they did what they did to attain it.

Compare Psychopathic natures from Andersonville in the south to Camp Douglas (Chicago) in the north.

Did you catch that? Think about it and give me your critiques via email.

Sure, we can all make rationalizations for those events. Depending on your side of the bombings, you might actually hit a point with some. But not all.

And that is my point.

Some days you get the bear.

Some days the bear gets you.

-Mark William Darus…

Sunday, March 25, 2012

Deadbeat parents: Fuck you, I've got a new family.

Dead beat Dads/Moms: Sorry, I’m replacing our kids for a whole new set.

The term Deadbeat parent, by most aspects of society, only deals in monetary values. What of the emotional destruction to the kids as their parents so easily forget them?

Ever wonder how a man could completely turn his back on his kids after spending years with them? They appear to be a near perfect, highly attentive father and husband. Neighbors would consider him devoted to his family: Sisters and brothers might say ‘this marriage and being a daddy has done him a world of good.’

I do not imply that all these men/women are Psychopaths, but one must wonder.

How is it these men/women can so effortlessly turn their backs on their own? Do they feel any guilt, shame or remorse? I have to think they don’t or can’t. One has to have a serious lack of emotion to do such a thing and ditch those they supposedly loved or at least gave an illusion to all those around them that they cared in the first place.

These is no statistical information about this: I am simply putting a theory of my own observations out there in the hopes to get responses based on personal events. Be it the child that was coldly blown off or the parent that did the distancing.

I do not subscribe to the bullshit lines we all hear so often: I just can’t stand to see that bitch! I’d rather be without the kids than deal with her. He was unfaithful and he back stabbed me to get the kids, so fuck him, let him deal with it. I need to move past this and go forward. I being proactive and take this as just a phase in life.

My favorite line: I’ve got a new family now and I need to work on that…

These people are twisted in the highest order, and therefore, deserve some examination.

How is it their new mates cannot see the simple, glaring fact: If they did this to those before them, what makes them think the same will not occur again?

Love conquers all? This new love is better, and will last. I’d never treat him/her like their ex, and they’ll appreciate it all the more and stay with me and my kids. I’m a much better lover! Who in their right mind would walk away from that?

They so readily fall for this person that ‘sacrificed their own kids to be with me and mine.’ They tell there friends this, and so willingly believe it they have little idea what they are getting into.

These people have become the new, soon to be abused, next conquest for the Psychopath. And they are taking their kids in tow into this world of lies and disorder. God, or some higher power help them if they have a child by this person as nothing can create such an emotional wasteland like that of the predator.

Granted, this is not always the case as some people are so emotionally fucked up and scarred that they simply don’t know their own mind and are fools to love and the feeling it gives them. This works both ways as both can give up their own for something they believe lacking in their lives and wish for something new, so bright and shining: to make them feel alive and important again.

Let me state this: I pass no judgment on these people. The Psychopathic or the wandering fools that place a ‘new love’ above all else. They both leave scars on all those involved and place themselves above all else. They are both equally selfish and are sociopaths in various levels of degree. Small wonder the children of these human train wrecks grow up with bonding issues with peers, teachers and authority in general.

They have been betrayed by those they loved the most: their own parent. Distance can hurt and kill a Childs development. These kids can feel so badly as they think they did something so horribly wrong to make the parent that cut them out of their young lives. With guilt, shame, and some lack on their part, they grow up with these thoughts that only grow larger with each passing year that it does not get addressed.

Perhaps they waste all emotions in their young lives. The past they’ve lived with takes over, the hurt encompasses them, a futility in the most innocent of love and they grow like a house built on sand versus good bedrock. They grow cold, slowly losing touch with the good things, like tossing a ball with dad or baking cookies with mom. Feeling nothing is better than feeling good to be hurt someday.

As mom/dad bring some new person into their lives, and seeing this happen repeatedly, they get a feeling that love is merely temporary and grow with that knowledge. After all, one parent left them for some other family and forgot about them. Left them with nothing, or worse, a lame explanation: You’ll understand when you grow up…

They will get older. With that getting older they have learned the value of relationships: They are Bic Lighters. A flame that burns briefly and when it passes, just toss it out and get a new one.

When I volunteered for a youth center for a span of about 5 years, hearing teens talk about their parents and those that left them: the myriad of relationships the custodial parent had, they got the feeling, ‘fuck it, just go find somebody else’.

Emotions? These kids have little need for things that brought them pain. Get close to someone that will be gone in a space of months.

I believe this is where a new generation of Psychopaths are born.

Keep this in mind, and again I state, 4% of the people of the United States are Psychopaths. This accounts for roughly 3 to 4 million people. This number is growing with each generation. Mostly nonviolent sociopaths, they have a strong sense of this: Fuck them before they fuck you. Ditch the bitch before she drops the hammer on me. I’ll take him for what I can before he’s unfaithful to me and chucks me to the curb.

They learn to use others with little or no remorse. They use this skill in school, relationships and jobs as they progress through life. These kids have a cold, dead look in their eyes, a ‘soulless look’ when questioned about an action they did.

They lose all hope over time with so many failed relationships on their parents part. They feel somehow to blame for this. This happens because most fucked up parents would find it easier to blame them instead of themselves for ’this’ relationship dying.

And this seems to start with one of their biological parents splitting and cutting them off without so much as a goodbye.

If this child’s issues are ignored, neglected or compounded by the staying parents inability to take responsibility for their own actions, they will grow with a cracked-mirrored look at life.

Monkey see, monkey do.

Thursday, March 22, 2012

The warnings: That those know work: Through Animal Eyes

You’ve met them. Be it at a party, a grocery store or perhaps a gas station while filling up. They’d casually make a comment about something and attempt to engage your eyes. People so looking average in most ways; a pleasant smile, great voice, much energy that most would engage them. Yet you didn’t. You’d later tell others: you ever meet someone that for no particular reason you just didn’t’ like?

Well, you are not the norm in our society. You somehow have a link to things in your subconscious that send warning lights as a predator approaches. You feel the hairs on your neck stand out, an unsettling feeling in the pit of your stomach, and a feeling to get the hell away as soon as possible.

You are the few that follow your animal instincts. You are seldom suckered into anything. You take time to think before both commenting and acting on any given situation.

Was this because you have a memory of being used and how you felt afterward that made you wise? Remembering a story from friend who’d been suckered into perhaps cosigning for an SO’s who defaulted on a car loan and leaving them holding the bag? Are you working on memory?

Chances are you are not. You most probably have a greater sense of following your instincts than most. All animals have a sense when they are approached by a predator. Most can sense the fight or flight impulse and respond to it. Unfortunately, most respond in the wrong way and become the prey.

That begs the question: What do you look for in a mate that may be a psychopath?

For the most part, you want to watch these tell-tails of average signs.

1. They seemingly have an abundance of energy, which to you seems almost contagious. They often display a great deal of body motion, talking with their hands, swaying their bodies in an almost rhythmic fashion. This is one of the ways you are being drawn into their world.

Why not? Look at all this energy! Most of the people we encounter hate their jobs and are more or less, lifeless. They live only for weekends and the other 5 days have virtually nothing to offer us except negative aspects of their lives: bills, work lives and stress.

The nonviolent Psychopath knows this and goes in the complete opposite direction. Watch for the showering of compliments from this person you have only known for less than five minutes.

2. They have no solid work background more than several years at a clip. They can so fill in the gaps though with stories that make sense to most. There is an almost too-logical flow to their words and statements that how can you think they are lying? They are acting for you.

3. Eye contact. They will constantly keep eye contact with you no matter where you turn your head. This is where they are sizing you up, digging into your head: The eyes are the mirror to the soul, after all and their recorder is always running.

4. They get in your space, usually getting within two feet of you. Doesn’t matter whether it’s a crowded bar or a vacant grocery store, they will move closer and closer. This is where they find the boundary line and gauge everything else that follows based on this. At this point, back up and maintain distance from this stranger. Do not let them into your henhouse.

5. Based on gender:

Female predator to male prey: they will share with you deep story of betrayal in the not so distant past. Examples of this: A seemingly meaningless grocery store encounter that turns into a soul baring experience. ‘My last man knew I was vegan and he always bought meat, How heartless? He knew I didn’t like such things. Ya know? Like Chinese water torture..’ Watch for the pouty expression and the lowering head. As she does this, she will still keep eye contact with you. Think about it: is this normal of someone displaying real emotion? Most feeling some sense of shame or regret will seldom meet another’s eyes. The other thing going toward males need to protect: “he beat me. Sure, he was great for a while. But, )she looks down at her shoes, yet still keeps eye contact with him, displaying a learned look of shame) but I loved him, ya know…?”

Male predator to female prey: “she just didn’t understand me… I’m an emotional guy and she just couldn’t take it. Sorry I cried when my mom passed away. Is that such a sign of weakness?” This is their way of going for most women’s maternal instincts. Unlike the female predator, men will drop their eyes and lose eye contact. This is expected behavior in men and they will know this. Men so have a way of not making eye contact that this seems perfectly normal to most women. They simply write it off as ’normal’ behavior. As they console this new found friend, they need to watch for instant smiles and words about their appreciation to meet someone that understands them. This is the males way of drawing you in.

This is most commonly followed by the male asking, with false shamed face: ’so, what was your worst experience with an SO?’ Don’t fall into this. Thru this, he will find your weaknesses that lie inside you heart.

I’ve given 5 examples thus far. These are not the only ones to heed but they are the basic ones. What makes those different then a normal encounter with a stranger?

Your instincts, that’s what. Do not fall into the “ I’m so educated, so smart, so intelligent,’ bullshit that you cannot be so absorbed into yourself that you cannot be taken advantaged of and be devoured by one that is far more cunning. As Cosmo would say: Smart women, Stupid choices. In short: Don’t let your ego make you someones bitch.

Whether you can learn from these things or not depends on what you consider important to you and what your instincts would guide you.

ALWAYS TRUST YOUR INSTINCTS WHEN MEETING OTHERS.

Those basic thoughts/ emotions of humanity play such a deep part in your future than what you may know or think possible as you could be the prey. Trust these things and do NOT delude yourself further and simply dismiss them. YOUR BODY/MIND IS TELLING YOU SOMETHING. FOR your Gods sake, listen to it. Run away…

Monday, March 19, 2012

WHERE'S MY FUCKIN' PLIERS?

    

             Catherine's story of Psychopathy.          
                      <thank you for emailing me, one who wishes to be not named. i thank you humbly for both your words and thoughts>
Thru animal eyes,
-Mark





                        Where’s my fuckin’ pliers?: My shiny blue toolbox.

This is a story about me. Fuck everyone else as I frankly don’t give a shit. I was nicknamed ‘User Incorporated’ by my bro and sis as they saw me learn to control people quite well by age 15.

Okay, let’s get the background crap outta the way first.

I was born into a typical Michigan middle class family back in the early seventies. Dad was Tarzan and mom was Jane. He dominated everything as he ‘made all the goddamned money and you best know that!’ Mom cooked, clean, saw to it we made it to school. She was a good cook but what she truly shined at was looking the other fucking way when dad beat us after a bad day at work.

Dinner at my house was so special. We’d sit there and watch dad rag on mom about everything. The roast is too dry, not cooked enough and it’s bloody, ‘how can you screw up potatoes? Can’t you do anything right?’ He’d then snap on us and tell us to eat our cow food and dip our heads into the trough and suck it up, because, after all, it was his hard work that brought the food here in the first place and we best not waste it. And we’d eat it all. If we didn’t, he’d beat us. Then he’d tell her not to eat so much because who wants a fat wife. Being with a bitch that’s boring in bed is bad enough.

I was the youngest.

My older sister was five years my senior. She had even gotten preggers by that bastard, as I found out years later after he died and did the earth a favor. He loved to get drunk and fish in his little dinghy. One day, his Mercury 25hp motor blew up and set his worthless ass on fire. He burned to death and I hope he is still doing so in hell. C'mon, who owns a fuckin' boat and has not learned to swim? Some assholes deserves their own deaths.

He liked working on his car and saw to it we all learned the value of tools. His sweat and bowing to bosses helped him buy those tools and we best respect that or he’d beat us… yadda yadda yadda and so forth and so on… Just shut the fuck up and hit us dad to get this over with already!

His tool box stood like a mountain before me. I was 8 and this behemoth towered at 6 feet plus. He taught me what tool was what: pliers, both needle nose, standard and dual purpose wire cutters/no adjusting pliers, Channel Locks, various saws, chisels, hammers, both claw and ballpeen, ratchets, sockets both standard and ’those commie shits that created metrics’. Wrenches, screw drivers of many types, you get the picture and if you don’t you really are a fuckin’ moron.

His toolbox was his pirates treasure. When he barked out a tool for me to get him, I’d jump at his command and hop to it. Sometimes he’d tell me to respond with shit like: Sir, Yes sir! When I got him the wrong tool, he’d backhand me across the face. This always made me cry.

Sometimes mom would come out after he’d hit me. She’d see the red color on my face, she’d see I was crying and she knew why. What did the cunt do? She’d say dinner would be ready in about a half hour and wondered what we wanted for desert. Desert?

That bitch died of cancer at forty-nine and I so enjoyed watching her body shrivel up as she stood on the deck, waiting for round at bat in the Pro League of Hell! As death closed around her at the hospital, my bro and sis would sit beside her. Sometimes they’d hold her hand and say everything was gonna be alright. When I was alone with her, I’d lean over her as if to give a kiss and tell her she looked great with sunken eyes and skin that thinly overlapped itself. I told her that she shouldn’t listen to *** and *****. They were lying to her, I’d say: c’mon, ma, you think they’re gonna tell you the truth?’ I’d also tell that she should have a great reunion with dad. A wondrous place where BBQ’s happen 365 days a year and it may be you that gets slowly roasted.

In short, I tortured her for her last several days on this planet. “Whoa, mom, your kicking off has really sped up since last night. Hey, I got about 6 hours before *** and ***** swing by, so let’s chat!” And yes, I was smiling and laughing as she could not talk back, tell the nurses jackshit. When a nurse did pop in, I’d give them a mournful glance, (which I learned from many funerals over the years) and say: she looks a bit better today, doesn’t she? God, could I mimic a hopeful tone. They’d check her BP/Heart rate and such. Chart what her piss bag showed and such and they’d ask me if they could get me anything. When feeling particularly nasty, I’d ask for a burger and fries. Most times, they’d bring me that and either a coffee or a Coke. One time I asked for a steak, blood rare, and I actually got it!

I’ve learned over time that nurses are great. They do what doctors and any normal person would not do. They, on an hourly basis check on the sick and dying. They care for these people. If I could feel sorry for anything, it would be for how I played them.

When I was growing up, I had my own toolbox. Unlike dads, which was fire engine red, mine was blue and quite shiny.

When I started dating I learned fairly quick what the boys liked. Like my father, they wanted to put their dicks in me and they didn’t care which hole they got. I so loved using my shiny blue toolbox to lure them to me as I had an ass to die for. When in blue jeans, I’d walk like the whore my father always called me, and they’d come to me like vultures to a carcass. They’d take me on dates, to dinners and they’d want to fuck me. If I felt like it, I’d (go into my toolbox and pull out a screwdriver) and let them go for it. I always made sure I had sure I had gloves in my toolbox, so I’d give them some.

As soon as I would orgasm, I’d freeze up, (grabbing a pry bar from my toolbox) and tell them to get the fuck out of me, usually pushing their dumbass’ off. Sometimes they’d shrink so fast they’d leave their condoms in me to as they pulled out. (grabbing my need nose pliers) I’d take those worthless hunks plastic wrap for dicks and toss them at their faces.

‘whu, what happened?” they’d ask, tiny little dicks shrinking for the protection of their nuts.

I’d lie and yell: ’You don’t really love me! You’re just using me!’ (pulling a spanner wrench out) to make them back up further.

‘Oh no, baby. It’s nothing like that…’

“just get back!’ I’d yell, (going for my coping saw to cut the fine curves in their decreasing ego) ‘your momma said she liked me! How could I face her after this? How can I look at her again without thinking of your grunting sweaty ass face?’ So practiced, sometimes in front of mirrors, I got the words and expressions down so fuckin’ well they’d freak out every time! And yeah, you have no idea how powerful that made me. Well, maybe you would. Some women love to blow their mates, never taking their eyes off their writhing bodies and eyes, knowing full well that ‘they’ are in control and can make or break the poor fuck-wads mood with a slightly too hard bite or just stopping saying their jaws hurt. ‘I’ll make it up to ya, studly.” Ha, yeah right! They just don’t want to swallow the slime after gurgling out with a dick to their tonsils: Give it to me. Give it TO ME. FUCKING GIVE IT TO ME!!!” Smart cunts! My hats off to those bitches of denial!

Sure, I had to face these fuck-faces at school the following Monday. No problem there. Daddy would often say: There’s a tool for every job, worthless little girl. And you should’ve been a boy like your brother!

No shit, Sherlock! Would it had been better if you had said: you shouldda been a boy like your sister? Oh, daddy, what’s the temp down there? And has mom been beer canned chickened yet with a keg of Pabst shoved up her ass? WELL COCKSUCKER, HAS SHE?

Sorry, I am really not sorry for anything, back to school. I knew they’d meet me in the hallway by my locker, tail so firmly between their legs, looking scared and powerless. “ I am so sorry for what happened between us. You gotta know I didn’t want to hurt you…”

And from my shiny blue toolbox, out came the bug spray.

“YOU TOOK ADVANTAGE OF ME, YOU PRICK! HOW COULD YOU DO THAT TO ME!”

You know, there is nothing like a high school hallway before the homeroom bell to have an audience. So eager for new gossip, the cheerleaders, home ec students and homely girls would have their ears and eyes aimed for the shouting voice so early in the morning. The Lettermen, shop and auto guys, and pothead males would look for a good reason to fuck with the guy that’s about to have his balls served to him.

“I MET YOUR MOTHER FOR GODS SAKE! I MEET HER AND WITHIN AN HOUR YOU WANT TO FUCK ME!” I kept up the volume and pace, keeping this fucker so far away from any sense of himself. I could see his heart beating fast in some too-tight concert jersey, the color leaving his face and he seemed to be having a hard time breathing.

With that, (I’d grab my shop-towel out to cover my face) and bury my head into my locker.

“Just fuckin’ get away from me,” and I would fake sobbing, warping words. This is quite easy to do in lockers as the metal acoustics give words an echoing, uncertain sound.

In no time at all, teachers would come to help me. They’d talk to me, always giving the guy the nastiest of glances: You NEED to get to homeroom. NOW!

I’d spend half a day in the office. I’d talk to counselors, vice principals. They’d tell me things like: Would you like us to contact your parents or his parents? I would tell them not to tell my parents as they are very religious and how this could backfire on me with my poor lack of judgment. And with his parents I could not deal with hurting his poor mother that way as she liked me so much.

They fell for it every time! There were no computers to log things with the efficiency there is now. There was no 976-KIDS number to dial. Stone age. They were such Neanderthals then. They’d comfort me, making sure I was calmed down enough to go to class.

Before the end of the day, some guy would always approach me and ask me if he could help. He’d invite me to dinner, saying things like: we’re not all bad. Or, that guy is an asshole.

I’d say thanks, dropping my head with a look of shame, (which I learned after watching a friend get busted for stealing a pair fishnets from a Victoria’s Secret when mall security popped her. HAHAHA, she served a weekend in Juvi).

They’d put a gentle hand on my should and I’d so slowly, so fucking planned, meet their eyes.

It was then I’d reach into my shiny blue toolbox.

Out would come my vial of Locktite, and they’d be my sex toy…

“are you really different from him?” I’d say so softly, that they’d lean toward to hear better.

“let me prove it to you…”

“okay… but I must meet your family first. I’m not easy or anything.”

They’d agree so eagerly that it got to be quite hard not to laugh in their fuckin’ faces.



PAPER OR PLASTIC?

Fuck, you hear this at every fucking grocery store you go to anymore.

Give me paper every fucking time. To me, paper is a skin-dick. Plastic is vibrator and only a loser uses mechanical shit when there is a world of dicks out there that so want to be teased. So many cocks to be used, and cast aside before the satisfy themselves.

And NO man since my father will ever cum in my mouth! NOT FUCKING EVER!

KNOW THIS! IF YOU TRY, MY TOOLBOX IS HUGE. AND I HAVE GOT A TOOL TO DEAL WITH YOU!

The other day, my neighbor asked me for a tool to fix a bolt in fence. I had a blank stare for a moment. I went to the trunk of my Blazer and looked around. Couldn’t find it…

Damn it!

Where’s my fuckin’ pliers????

<hope this helps someone. I don’t think it will.

I hope to meet you someday. Thanks for the chance to tell my story and feel free to post it.

Call me Catherine, if you would.

If I could have emotion, you would have mine freely. Please take my loyalty instead,

-Catherine.

Saturday, March 17, 2012

Disclaimer.

A Disclaimer on our BLOG.

A moment of pause. About Warnings to Others.

As my sister pointed out to me, I should use this BLOG as a warning to the prey on ways to not become such. My thoughts toward people as a whole fall to this: Either learn from your mistakes you’ve had in the past or be damned to repeat them. Why do so many women fall into the pattern of abusive relationships that they repeat them over and over again? Are these woman incapable of learning, stupid or just so utterly without a sense of self-worth that they can be so utterly suckered into falling for the same facades repeatedly? Why does Cosmopolitan magazine, at least twice a year have a heading of ‘Smart women, stupid choices’?

The warnings are within my words and the words of others. Those words never carry the line: Do not fall for this or it WILL fuck you up! This is based on the simple the thought of reverse psychology: tell someone not to do something and they will surely think themselves above the warning and proceed toward the left hook they refused to see heading their way.

All situations are not the same as many bungle through relationships on a purely innocent basis and I simply do not wish to breed paranoia against all human relationships. I, as well of others who have taken the time to email me, do not want to black-ball all one on ones as a predator to prey thing. Truly, most are that way, but so goes the struggle between men and women. There will always be dominance and submission between the sexes. There will always be relationships on such uneven emotional contact between the two, that one of the two will always feel somewhat slighted. Have those slighted been used? Has one that wishes to travel with another that would rather not been used? That is all up to interpretation and must be looked at on a singular basis.

This BLOG will not go there as it is not Psychopathic in its nature. Those things are not in the realm of Psychopathy and more simply based on pure relationship differences. Likes and dislikes; I like football and she cannot stand it. I like the Browns and she likes the Steelers. I want flowers in the front yard and he wants shrubs. Though often voiced with a good level of emotion and disdain, they are normal across all boards. And so it goes.

This site will go the extremes of the worst human train wrecks imaginable. Where some will consider suicide while others that wiped another out will simply hunger for a egg salad sandwich. A walk into dark places most wish to ignore as it may say more about themselves then they wish to acknowledge.

A site where those that hunger to devour and those that have been eaten can share their stories equally and without bias.

To be true, one must serve both sides without reprisal and retribution. A writer of nonfiction, a journalist if you will, must hold this simple truth: Just the facts as they are given and give no subjective thinking on their regards.

I hope I can do this with the purity that I intend for it.

Friday, March 16, 2012


Psychopathic Relationships: Through Animal Eyes. Part I

 

It can be said that both female and male Psychopaths possess certain powers thru both manipulation and a keen sense of perception when scoping out their prey. They know what they are looking for and can generally size up a target in a mere matter of minutes, if not seconds. They simply, casually, as one may pick out a Pepsi from a wall of beverages, turn their limitless energy toward their target. Locked and loaded, they open fire, watching their preys attention seemingly forget what it was doing in the first place. Their prey feeling utterly swept off their feet with all this focus being pointed squarely on them. Showering them with compliments, telling them things they’d always wanted to hear but thought they never would, they venture forward and wish to capture this potential suitor.

With an almost unearthly sense, their soon-to-victims tend to be drawn toward them much like a car or house can be sucked into the vortex of a tornado or an underpowered boat being pulled to the center of a whirlpool. Most of us know what happens at that point: With their defenses lost, the victim succumbs and feels as if this person (the predator) has wrapped them in a warm and safe blanket to both protect, satisfy and make them happy.

It’s been said countless times for a myriad of reasons: If it seems too good to be true, it probably is and should be avoided at all costs. Sadly, most don’t and learn to regret it, but not as quickly as you might think.

Why do they not trust their instincts? Why do they fall so hard for someone they seriously do not know? How does this happen? Is it a sincere belief in love and its magic power, human kindness or just blind faith that propels then in the worst relationships of their lives?



Hopefully, this may shed some light on the darkest place of human relationships.

Through Animal Eyes.

Both men and women seek different things when looking for that ‘one special’ person. However, they both ponder scenarios of what could be, what magic can happen when they meet that single person that sends their hearts into a tizzy and their minds into a world of their wants and desires. Their imaginations run wild with all the great possibilities that can result from that chance meeting they long for so desperately. They are so willing to bare their souls and tell ‘the one’ all their dreams and secrets. They desire to share themselves with another human being that so seems to care, perhaps love, them with full acceptance They believe in having a soul mate, one that seems to know them better then they know themselves. They are dreamers who believe more in the dream itself then they believe in or even understand themselves. They gaze into shattered mirrors and are completely bowled over when someone tells them what they wish to hear. That they are worthy and they need to get a new mirror as “if you could only see what I see in you, baby” is told to them repeatedly.

Many wish to be used and the predator will spot them a mile away. With ravenous eyes, boundless energy and an insatiable hunger they will gladly meet them halfway.

THE SOFTER OF THE SEXES: FEMALE PSYCHOPATHS. THE PREYING MANTIS PART I.





The female Psychopath will look for men that have fancy cars, a good job and seem a bit insecure around women and even their peers. They keenly pick up on subtleties in both speech and body language. They listen for things such as men always making statements that come off more like questions, displaying a hidden insecurity and lack of confidence in what they are saying. They look for men that brag about the new car they just got, showing a liking for the material more than the spiritual, “I got this, I got that, I’m going to buy this…” And with each thing they say, the underlining tone is ‘now if I just had someone to share it with.” These men seldom stand erect, walk with drooping shoulders, head hung low and would rather have their possessions speak for themselves. Most wear clothes that don’t fit, usually last decades styles and appear to have been dressed by their mothers.

When it comes to eye contact, the female Psychopath always stares deep into the mans eyes, watching his uncertain, awkward attempts to meet hers. She knows the further she sets her sights into his eyes, she’ll discover more of what makes this man tick. Though there are no facts in regard to this, they have better than average peripheral vision and can not only probe deep into his eyes, they study and record his tensed up body language. They say something like, ‘you’re just being modest,’ as they stroke his ego as they slowly turn their heads away, yet all the while watching his reactions when the man thinks she is not looking. He’ll give out an inaudible sigh, face looking somewhat happy and at ease for that lone split second she diverts her gaze. This man is now dreaming of nights no longer alone and perhaps he has hit what his friends refer as ‘pay-dirt’.

She will keep filling his head with compliments and then comes her all-too abrupt announcement of departure. She does this to throw them off base, to nail them with an urgency to either rise or fall. She has to get up for work early and needs to get her, and so coyly said, ‘beauty sleep’. It is then he either asks for her phone number or he doesn’t. She’ll give him approximately 5 seconds to ask as she says, ‘it was nice meeting you!’ She gives him a sigh as she slowly turns to leave. 5 seconds gone, she turns and says, ‘could have your number?. I mean, I’m not usually this forward.’ Giving out a seductive chuckle, she adds, ‘ I’m no Gloria Steinman, so don’t expect me to burn my bra.” Smiling all the while as she takes her right hand and touches between her un-bra’d breasts, adding “opps, not wearing one, so burning is totally out of the question.”

He confidently, while laughing at her comments, perhaps even blushing, gives her his number.

She now has him hook, line and sinker. His life will never be the same as he slowly allows himself to be devoured by what he thinks is the best thing that has ever happened to him. Remember snakes. They can swallow larger animals and take months to digest them, growing stronger with each passing day as the trapped animal gets smaller, weaker, unable to fight their way free and losing any sense of self in the process.

She is master of dominance and submission. She’ll always ask him what he wants to do and he will so readily say that whatever she wants to do is fine with him. This is the
subtlety of his giving in to her ideas and making her likes a larger part than his own. Keep this one truth in mind, when this relationship ends he will no longer have the slightest clue as to what makes him happy in pursuing and what, if any, his true passions were before he met her.

We’ll get back to him in a moment.

Let’s take a fair glance at her. She is good looking by most standards. Usually slender, very long hair by the norms of society, and mostly brunette. If not slender, she will exude a confidence in her body that goes so strongly against the way most slightly overweight women would ever act. She will wear clothes to accent her strong revealing and highly open-book type nature, and back that up with all the energy and feminine whiles there is. In short, she can be the greatest exhibitionist any man has ever seen and turn heads as she walks into a room arm in arm with her prey. Most men would look at this woman and ask, ‘what’s he got that I ain’t got?’

She is throwing out such vibes, perhaps thru Pheromones, that men instinctively turn to catch a glimpse of her. Add to this a generous supply of alcohol and those men, not preyed upon by her, will cast her as their sex slave in their mental pornos as they bang their girlfriends, wives that do not carry themselves with such total self assuredness and outgoing presence. These men sense a raw sexuality about this women in her movements, cadence and overall looks. They feel their instincts rise for a women that they should both run from and flock toward, as a fly does to the candle that would coldly waste them. They can sense there is something different about her that sets her apart from the average day-to-day female they’d casually pass at a grocery store, stroll by at work, or dismiss as their eyes would meet on a morning rush hour commute to work.

Men’s egos are so easily stroked. They love to hear the ‘you’re the best! You’re the kindest.” And the greatest thing any man could hear: “ OH MY GAWD! YOU ARE THE BIGGEST AND BEST LOVER I HAVE EVER HAD! “ When it comes to being used, men are the easiest to take control over. They have that sense of ‘Mother’ that keeps them in check. Most of them have some guidance of morality, decency that when a woman that stands apart from the crowd, or herd as many refer to it, strokes their egos correctly and does not put out for a few weeks into the relationship is a woman of worth.

So easily they become the willing dinner of the Human Preying Mantis. She will continue to stroke his fragile ego until she gets whatever it is she wants. She will do this coldly, all the calculations figured out long in advance, as she knows his weaknesses that only a man, especially if she keeps him boozed up, would ever tell a woman that must’ truly care’ and be most trustworthy.

How does she end it with this spent shell of a man?

She will, over time catalogue things he’s said that she displayed with mild dismay or confusion to, and draw upon those things to break it off. “ I am so sorry, but I cannot forget when you said…” She’ll act with a fake sadness, telling him that she needs to step back and think about things, losing eye contact with him that makes him think, ’she must be fucked over what I said’, and he’ll let her go to think it over and after trying and failing, he’ll say he was either too drunk or just not thinking right as an apology.

Getting what she set out for, having her next victim hovering in the upper wings with patented line, ‘ I just have to end it with him and I really don’t want to hurt him. Then I can give myself to you totally.’

Game, set and match. A game well played by cunning and shrewd predator. She smiles, great thoughts of what she accomplished, pats her massive ego as she showers off the stink of the unworthy as a panther would lick themselves clean after good kill.

And yes, it is that simple.

More to follow on this as there will be a part II.

<<<Authors note: I must give thanks to Kara, Elizabeth, Farma, Catherine, and most of all, Abigail. You have given me so much to process, put an order to and actually write about that mere words by me cannot express my thoughtful gratitude. This will be considered sick by most, but I do so humbly respect you all!

Call it what it is, it does truly take one to KNOW one.

-Yours in pen, mind, and other things,

Mark.>>>

Tuesday, March 13, 2012

 Abigails story part II.

Thank you, Abigail for this second installment.
With forehead to yours,
Mark

 

 

Abigail: Part II: First rise from flunky to major assistant. .

After using many men as I had John to reach whatever goal or object I desired at any given moment, I began to wonder if the same principles could be used with jobs. Sure, I’d worked a bunch of fast food jobs as a teen and never really thought about using coworkers to gain anything at that point. Some of my friends during my college years used their bodies to make money, by being strippers, doing stag parties and the like. Some even hooked for a while in school. Easy money, they’d say, just don’t skimp on cheap condoms.

I started thinking I could do things a bit different than them without having to smell some stinky asshole as they pounded me into a wall.
At that point I was working as a gopher in a law firm. I’d do their copying, fetch them coffee, pretty much whatever they needed. Like most law firms at that time, it was male dominated, with mostly women as either paralegals, first year lawyers or simply a personal assistant to one the firms partners. The assistants made roughly twice as much with me.

After working their about a month, I got to know several of them after work. We’d go to bar near the firm every Friday in downtown ****** . We’d have a few drinks, in most cases way too many drinks, and they’d talk about their boss and the private details of their lives. This one paying hush money to some whore he had knocked up. That one being unfaithful countless times to those of ‘lesser stature’ or this one who’d tanked his taxes for the last twelve years. All these assistants had two things in common: They had all slept with their boss, and two, they easily spilled their guts when drunk, and some literally so.

I’d given them no reason not to trust me. I shared with them prefabricated stories of jobs that I had been taken advantage of by the toady little men in power and that I knew how they felt. I told them stories with such lush detail they never once suspected they were lies.

NOTE TO OTHERS: WHEN YOU LIE, GO LARGE. NEVER LACK DETAIL, GIVING THE LISTENER WHAT YOU REMEMBER ABOUT BACKGROUND NOISES, SMELLS, HOW THE SKY LOOKED, ETC. USE THE SAME THINGS YOU LIKE TO READ ABOUT IN NOVELS. LOOSELY BASE THESE STORIES ON MINOR MEMORIES FROM YOUR PAST (THAT WAY YOU CAN REMEMBER THEM WITHOUT FAIL IF YOU HAVE TRAINED YOUR MIND WELL ENOUGH).

I talked to my brothers, asking them which partner had more to lose if they were cornered. Both my brothers came to the same conclusion: The one with the soon to be discovered tax problem. They reasoned: he was married, had children, two houses, a motor home that went for 750k, a 50 foot yacht with crew, which were all paid in cash, and a host of other toys that he had never paid taxes on.

After doing a bit of research, I discovered he had only declared an income of 200k, on average, to the IRS.

One day, Andy I’ll call him. (thanks, Mark, for pointing out the importance of changing names), I told him about his assistant and how she so idiotically would spill her guts when bombed. Anyone in earshot could hear her, and how that could blowback on him. I gave him a highly concerned facial expression, seldom having my eyes meet his, as if ashamed to break a confidence. He thanked and said he’d deal with her in his own way, never losing a lawyers cocky self assurance.

Two hours later, he gave me a tiny tape recorder and said it would benefit me if I could catch her on tape this coming Friday. I sheepishly gave him a ‘uh, well, I’d feel really bad if I did that…’ and he piped in, ‘I’ll give you her job, that’s twice what you’re making now and there are ‘perks’ that go with that..” I told him thanks, but ‘I just don’t know. I mean, what if she comes back at me/” He smiled like the egotistical bastard that he was, “don’t you worry about a thing. God knows, I need someone I can trust…”

The following Friday, I bought the drinks with money he had given me.

Roughly, two months after I started there, not even done with the mandatory 90 day probationary period, I became an assistant. Granted, I lacked the overall skills for that job, but that really didn’t matter. His closest friends were also partners, and like all good lawyers, loved solid intelligence on their underlings. In my eight there while in college, I was responsible for the termination of roughly twenty assistants and as each one passed, I got a good salary bump and extra paid time off for things like, exams, studying for exams, paid vacations to Rio, Maui and Aspen as many of the partners assistants liked me around to spot potential women that ‘could use them for blackmail it slept with’.

Here is where one needs to ask a very important question. How can one who cannot possibly do the job they reached get away with it by simply being a stoolie? It was very easily done this way. I’d look harried and frantic and ask one of the gophers to run this and that to the courthouse. Get this copied ASAP and get it back to whomever, and take the notes from this meeting and such saying Abigail sends her respects but she called away for ‘other’ duties. Over drinks one night at some fund raiser Andy asked me how I managed to get all the things done that I had received credit for, citing “where do you find the time?’ I looked at him with the cold, confident look of a lawyer and said:‘I got others to do the majority of it and feel good about doing it as it ‘may’ benefit them in the future. I gave him a ‘come hither’ smile and stroked his ego by ending it with: You taught me well, great master. He burst out in laughter I had seldom heard as he reached out to shake my hand. “I taught you well then.”

Later that night, after I had scoped him out some seriously wasted dizbrain secretary from Wisconson, giving her some fake name for him, he met for more drinks after he’d nailed her.

“you know why I never tried nailing you/” he asked, face still aglow from random sex with someone that was not his wife.

I told him flatly: because you know I’d fuck you up for three quarters of what you own.

He nodded, raised his Makers Mark and bowed his head. “ I know a fellow predator when I meet one. And I am not suicidal.”

I smiled at him, meeting his eyes I then realized he was no different than me.

Over the years, I’d met his wife and kids and even went a few vacations with them. He knew I’d never say a word to them as I had grown some loyalty and respect for him as his dealings in the world of law were both ruthless and cunning. I was at that firm for over eight years when he retired and for that I received a check from the firm for 1.2 million dollars for ‘services rendered’ with the option to come back at any time and be the senior partners assistant. I also received a most gracious letter of recommendation for future employments for my services, achievements above all else, my ability to keep the confidential information of senior Execs.

And yes, I had paid full taxes on that 1.2 million.

(to Mark. Thanks. Yours is the first Psychopathy site that didn’t go into those that serve a breed wrong. The serial killers and their ilk, Columbine clones and their like. Thanks for keeping your blog real.)

Takes one to KNOW one,

Yours,

Abigail.

Saturday, March 10, 2012

Abigails Story: part I

                 I recieved my first email about this BLOG.

Thanks, Abigail for your thoughts and words and look forward to more of the same. I posted your story, thus far and left 'other' observations out for now. I know you somehow understand why I did this. I took to liberty of changing that 'ex's name' to John. With head bent in respect, i hope you can appreciate this.

Abigails Story, part I:




Mark, the Blog would not take comments, hence the reason for this email. Love your Blog.

I am a forty-three year old woman with a fairly normal background and upbringing. I studied architectural drawing in college and minored in psychology. I’ve had several major jobs in the lifetime and climbed through the ranks with little or no effort on my part.

Like you, I began reading psych books at a young age and went after them with an almost primordial hunger. I remember thinking: hmmmm, what makes people tick? What makes them act the way they do when they do? What makes one laugh at a car accident and others cry, scream or just walk past it as if nothing had ever happened.

I guess I began being a psychopath when I 14. My Grandmother had passed away and I felt such enormous feelings of loss and hate and dread. My parents were okay enough, but they were dealing with their own sense of loss and somehow didn’t seem to notice me and my older brothers sense of loss. My brothers went outward with their feelings, playing football with their friends and tackling some just a bit to hard, landing one of their friends in the hospital with busted ribs. I went inward, shutting myself off from all my friends and virtually everyone else. I think it was in this, the pain of losing the most cherished person in my life, that I systematically destroyed my emotions.

I destroyed them with a methodical sense of reasoning: Never get that close to anyone again. Never let sadness hurt so much that it can strip us from ourselves. Happiness always equals pain at some point. Being human sucks, so let’s no longer have our mind be amongst theirs.

A few years later, when a friend of mine died from a car accident, I tried to feel, feel anything, and then I heard this ‘SNAP’ go off in my head at her funeral. I then comforted mutual friends, her family and her boyfriend who’d been drunk and caused the accident. It was as if I could SEE myself do these things. Give the proper expressions of face and a perfect balance of words and their tones. I saw their faces twisting, body language, tears, heard their cries and continual sobbing and my mind began recording these things, storing them into memory. Future reference material, perhaps, but I learned and learned quite fast. I asked a total stranger if I could borrow their car to get a pack of smokes. This guy must’ve been close to her because he reached into his pocket and gave me his keys. Well, I didn’t smoke at that time and wanted to see if I could get away with it. I did.

At 17, I was fairly attractive and had no problem getting dates. What I couldn’t stand were these supposedly ’normal’ guys always wanting to fuck me on the first or second date. Oh yeah, like a trip to Dennys should give you the right to enter my body? So I wondered, what could I get out of these sad, though highly horny little bastards? As it turned out, I could get a great deal.

I wanted a new stereo for my bedroom, so on a second date with a guy named John we stopped by an appliance store that had good sound equipment. I was 18 then and he was 24. John had a stable job. He also had a wife and two kids. We walked through the stereo area and all I had to do was look at the one I wanted, give out this little escape of air-noise and look down at my shoes and make my face change like those that cannot afford something that they REALLY want. I said “oh well, “ and started walking down the aisle. He grabbed my arm and said something like: ‘you relly want that one, don’t you?” I gave him this innocent girl pouty-faced look as I slowly adjusted my bra, my eyes met his as they darted from my chest to meet mine. I smiled and said; ‘no, I can’t let you buy me that. Sorry, John, I just don’t know you that well for such a gift…” While I said that, I slowly moved toward him, getting close enough to feel the bulge in his faded black corduroys, smelling him, his desire for me. In a mere matter of days, I’d smell his fear of me.

I got the stereo that same night and my brothers helped me hook it up. I’m not so good at launching rockets or placing them on their pads, but I am great at blowing them up.

On the third date with John, we went to Mountain Jacks and had a great meal. It was then he suggested we go to a motel for some ‘private time’. I gave a laugh, asking him if he had said: “privates time’? and his face flushed red as a fire engine. “well, I just thoughr…”

I told it was too soon for me and he said he understood.

On our fourth date, I made sure we went to a mall not far from my home. I’d seen anger and rage in other people and had a pretty good handle on how the vocal sounds should be with the accompanying body language, the set of the eyes, baring of the teeth. I was ready to chuck this poor sad bastard. I told him to meet me at the food court at a set time.

In the middle of a full shopping mall food court, I let it rip.

He said hi and went to kiss me.

“Don’t even try to kiss me you fucking dickhead!”

He lost footing and almost fell over. “whuuu’what?” Mind recorder running, I taped him as he tripped over his own words like the fool I knew he was from the start. (the sounds one makes when they are broadsided by the unexpected, desperately reaching for words, thoughts but are unable to grasp them.)

Not giving him a chance to get his footing: “WHEN WERE YOU PLANNING ON TELLING ME YOU WERE MARRIED? WHAT KIND OF WOMAN DO YOU TAKE ME FOR???” Making quite the scene, he split in mere seconds, but just before he ran, I told him in a flat calm voice with cold eyes staring at him, almost like a whisper, ’I AM going to tell your wife.”

Mark, you probably know damn well how I hooked up with him. I was behind him at a grocery store and he was talking to some friend on a cellphone about how his wife didn’t flirt with him anymore and how bored he was. ’having two kids shouldn’t make ya a fuckin’ nun, right?” As he was paying for his groceries, I strategically dropped a few items by missing the belt and bent over to get them. Being busty, I knew he’d look and offer to help. It was then I gave him

‘The Glance’ that always hooked men regardless of where we were. I smiled as he offered to help me, and I suggested that maybe he’d be so kind as to walk me to my car to prevent other such mishaps. He agreed and as I filled my trunk, I let him kiss me. HOOKED! And I even had the exit stragity calculated from the conversation with his friend.

Mark, (social-sniper) I will send you more later on as I am off this weekend.

Takes one to KNOW one,

Abigail

Wednesday, March 7, 2012

Chptr 1 Child Psychopaths.

Chapter 1: Child Psychopaths. What makes one child commit suicide versus one commit homicide?

This goes back to an area in the world of Psychology that has neither proof nor absolutes. These professionals would try to corner any of those areas with their aspects into pigeon holed groups, (subdivisions), that would profoundly state their point as “near-fact’, or better yet, give you formulas and numbers that only the most devote could possibly understand. Kind of makes you think: “if we can’t baffle them with brilliance, let’s baffle them with bullshit”.

I can only give you this, with no facts, no profound conclusions, nothing of any proof one way or another except this: I do NOT base my findings on any study, examination, except those thoughts from those people that have told me life-stories and experiences over their lives. Frankly, I think most in the Psychological community have diluted themselves into ‘based on’ thoughts that they have forgotten the base premise of Psychology. A single persons theory without background, yet a willingness to prove said theory, and have it placed into a book about a human condition they have observed.

I can only say this: These things written are my thoughts and observations based on both my and others life-works. There  are NO

FACTs  in anything I write. This IS Psychology, (a study of the human mind/animal mind) and for that, fact is merely on whichever side of the fence you choose to saddle.

 

In the words of the Ramones: Hey, Ho, let’s go!

The Psychological world seems totally at opposite camps whether Psychopathic behavior in children is either genetic or something that is learned over time. They argue and state factors supporting their views, giving countless variables for each situation, going backwards to observations that were never proven, or better yet, remotely of a nature to explain why one child kills themselves versus one that, for very similar reasons, chooses to kill the kids of the school to get even and balance their mental books.

Keep this in mind: these same camps at some point love the works of Freud and other decades hate him. When dealing with the mind and thought processes the best we can hope for is mediocrity in the noblest sense of the word. There are NO constants. One plus one does NOT equal two, and to those on the fringes, not every day is a new beginning.

Let’s stroll into the depths that so many children think developing. Granted, some have been beaten and abused by either the parents, the ’sneaky uncle/aunt/, bullies, or just some fate of circumstance by a loved one dying young, or a case of childhood ups and downs that they no longer wish “to feel’. Some, mostly that of female children, felt slighted by peers by being overweight, less athletic, or just homely. Both male and female have one sense: abandonment from either their peers, parents or their world in general as THEY see it.

How we, as rational thinking adults, see their world and the opportunities it brings means nothing to them. At their ages, they cannot see the world as we see it, and this is where counseling and Psychotherapeutic community need to remember life before they got so learned and highly educated. \

HEY-HO, LET’S GO!


Child Psychopaths are, in my opinion, not genetic in nature. They learned at some point to kill emotions either by the pain of being abused, or just a way to cope from negativity when expressing their emotions to either counselors or parents, which the power giving those in their lives, gave their feelings the blanket response that what they feel is wrong and not appropriate. Basically, a, ‘sorry, but you shouldn’t feel that way….” To that child, they do not care why they shouldn’t feel that way, or why it is inappropriate, or why it is self destructive, they simply wish to be heard and to have their feelings addressed. So often this fails at some juncture, that they either kill or waste themselves.

Why would a child kill themselves when there is so much help out there? They do this because that ‘help’ fails to reach at the childs base-core, failing to discover this childs heart-of-hearts in the childs language to pull them out of a doves screaming Earthward dive, which to the child, means everything. Either to themselves or bring harm to others.

Either kill oneself to end this pain, or kill many to be heard. At that point, what makes the difference appears to be upbringing and educational awareness. Those children with the ups/downs fall back unto either being either nonviolent Psychopaths with upbringing and some sum of understanding, though feeling nothing or those that which chuck all feeling from being repeatedly abused, chuck all and wish for death fulfillment by killing others to feel at ease, “you all hurt me, so I am going explode on all of you for minimizing me.” Suicide vs. homicide being based on some base awareness in that child to either Implode or Explode. Implode being the total act of self-absorption (suicide) or that of explosion, (killing others) screaming one final attempt to be heard, giving them a life of imprisonment, or like Columbine, a wasting of themselves before being caught, to still be heard as a mere afterthought.

These acts of homicidal mania get so well spent on speculation based on media exposure to rock and roll, Goth music or the fact that the last song found on an 8-track, cassette or CD in the childs room being Lynyrd Skynrds Freebird. “they must’ve listened to “that song” til it drove them nuts,” is a good spin. This takes away any missed responsibility that both the parent and the school had for missing the ‘something’ that made this child do the things they did. Gives them some ‘comfort’ point to fallback on. Makes sense though as most wish to cover their ass in the face of things they had overlooked and simply blown off, to look good and loving parents in the face of mass media over a horribly tragic event. God forbade them say the truth, that they missed something and human-esque fucked up.

School systems get so blamed for events of the homicidal child. Sorry, I cannot blame them as their coffers shrink with the piss poor economics structure which is based more on an athlete that only gets paid 10 million and not 15 million or he’ll bolt to some other team. (OH MY FUCKING GOD, HE MIGHT TAKE HIS FOOTBALL, BASEBALL, BASKETBALL AND GO HOME LIKE SOME BABY!!!!)

Maybe we, as a society have become so cold, money-based, so self centered we have forgotten our children in this process and outsource responsibilities for our children ( and the children of our society for those who pay taxes yet have no children) that we have forgotten a simple fact. These children are our future either through voting, taking technology over their parents health versus the “NEW-UPCOMING Ipod 17 dot O! “ What have we, versus the media taught children? Sorry, but most of us make less than the ‘baller’ we praise through professional sports, yet cry out in mass forms about an outrage over some managerial decision to go for a 5 million dollar player over a 10 million dollar player. And the average daycare worker makes minimum wage and they care for our children so we can work. Yes, we of the enlightened United States have it so correctly, fuck the minimum wage earner, but cry out over the overpaid sports nut whom only looks out after themselves for playing a game?

Think about the things I have said tonight, I hope they pissed you off enough to rethink some priorities in your life as they relate to matters of what our children see and the importance we place on what we display as important. Most tell out children through our actions: 15 million is better than 10 million, as the child thinks, “ I don’t make anything, so I must be less-than-zero.”